I am a rape survivor

Hi. My name is Christian and I am from the Philippines. Here is a brief story of mine: I met someone older than me whom I thought I could trust. I asked him if I can sleep overnight as my parents are having a daily arguments which made me decided to breathe for a night. Then I never thought he has a hidden agenda that's why he accepted me in his house. I was raped for the whole night and I visited an HIV clinic because I had a gonorrhea then found out that I already have an HIV. I am humbly knocking on your hearts to help me with my medication. I want to continue living so I could get a job for my family and make their dreams come true and to make my dreams for my parents to happen too. I didn't want this. I'm in the middle of anxiety and depression because of this. Knowing that the virus could make my health worse and could end my stay here on earth. I am 25 and I have a lot of dreams that I want to achieve someday.