How it feels to be happy

Hello!

I am a normal girl with a dream.

I always wanted to be a famous doctor, flight attendant or a pilot. I was a leader since a little kid.  I loved helping people with what I could.When I was ten, I took care for puppies  (Sara, Sue and Peta), washed them in a bath and dreaming at night to see them surrounded with people who love and would care for them every day. Sara, Sue and Peta died two months later by poisoning.

 "What is wrong with the world? Why? They were just three harmless puppies!"- I thought.

I started thinking that people were bad. I saw so much suffering and pain that at age of ten a already knew what I don't want to become-a selfish, cruel person with no love or faith in her heart.In that precise moment , I decided to become something more than a girl with good profession- I wanted to be an inspiration for people, someone who would help and give love in evey possible way - a good person, a happy inspiring person. (they should be synonyms)

Two months ago, at age of 20 I decided I am starting to follow my path.I did one of the most silly things a person could imagine- I drop off college and off my fancy International Relations degree.I saw my life in the administration of the ministry of foreign affairs in Bulgaria. I saw a girl working for the non- idealistic ideals of a party with enough money to participate in Bulgaria's political life. I saw how I would give my life to an idea I don't believe in.But most importanly, I saw a little girl who would have been  very disapointed from me. She would have said that I wasted my and hers life for nothing, fighting to get in a place she didn't want to be.. That girl was me.She had a dream- to help people and animals. I had one too- to inspire changes in people's life and to teach them what I understand after years of sadness and pain.. I learned the hard way that..

people are the most valuable thing in the world. They really can change others lifes. 

Being very confused with everything in my new life, I searched for motivation everywhere and finally, I found what I was looking for.A woman called Nina Ray has a one-week seminar of self-improvement here, in Bulgaria called "Life unlimited"- www.nina-ray.com/lifeunlimited/                  She is psychologist, happiness couch and an amazing woman who believes that we are precious creatures, made to be happy.She is everything i want to be and her enthusiasm, warmth and understanding made me feel like I have to go to her seminar by any means and that this is my chance to start believing in my inner strenght in a moment that I start completely new path.To start this journey, I need 500 dollars for her seminar.I decided that I will strive to find at least 200 dollars by myself and thus - not stand with hands in my pockets waiting for a miracle :) But also, that I would ask to receive power and strenght from people even if they don't know me. I remember a person said to me once-"Annie, why are you so ashamed to ask for help? Don't you know that helping you they will make themselfs happy? NEVER be affraid to ask for help! Because people have more power that you could imagine."

I simply want to shine for the people i know and for those who will come in my life in the future..I need to be inspired to start inspiring. And..

 i dare to ask your help for my journey to happiness.

I truly believe that no matter what the whole world thinks is happiness, the real one is when you look over your sholders and  say- " I did it.I made my dream come true." 

 I really, really, really want to make mine come true! :)

 So thank you for being here and may God bless you, friend.