Help me redeem my grandfathers farm and become farmer

Hi my name is Justas, i live in Lithuania. I'd like to share my life story and I would be grateful if you read it to the end.

I was born and raised in the village on my grandfather's farm. We lived here five, me, my mom, uncle, grandfather and grandmother. My father left us when i was a baby. From an early age I was introduced to farm work. The jobs weren't complicated because I wasn't a big helper at the time. First i was entrusted to raise chicks as soon as they hatched from the egg, to keep them from being trample down. Every time I lost one chicken I was crying but my grandmother comforted me by saying that nature selects and remains only strong ones.

As I grew up, list of assignment got bigger from animal care to environmental management. I'll be honest some of the jobs (potato field weeding, turning hay and grain loading) i didn't like because everything was done by the hand. Everything else related to animals and machines I enjoyed and performed with pleasure. Feeding cows, rabbits, ducks and chickens, talking to them calmed me down. I liked replacing parts and turning screws of the implements . Then I realized that I don't want to change that kind of life for anything. I didn't go out with friends after school, but rushed home to do something. There was days when I ran away from classes, so I can help my uncle, because that was more important to me.

All my classmates wanted to move as quickly as possible from the village after finishing school, except for me i wanted to stay, create a family and keep farming. Because of that I decided to acquire a specialty that would fit me in countryside living. My grandma always suggested to be vet, because I enjoyed taking care of animals, but i hated blood so that wasn't the option. Therefore I decided to choose profession like my uncle which is mechanical engineering. So I went out to study in the city, it was hard to get used to the many people surrounding me every day and the traffic. I made a new friends who helped me to settle in, for that I am very grateful to them. Studies was doing well, and farm began to expand. When it seems that life can‘t be any better everything changed. My grandfather died, after that grandmother, it broke my uncle, and he started to care less about the farm. Because I grew up without a father, and learned everything from uncle, it was hard for me to see him like that. I wanted to help as much as I could for him to recover. Started to skip lectures at university to do some work at home because education without ensure life in farm doesn't mean anything for me.I planned to fix home problems first, then go back to university to finish what I started.

Two years have passed and it looked like everything come back like it used to be, with uncle we even started talking about how the farm could expand and that I could take it over. My whole life I was dreamer, and such talks made me dream how things would look like if it come true. But unfortunately nothing happened, and things started to get worse than they were. He begin to command me to the point on how I should do even the most basic things so we started to disagree and argue. Then came a day when he snap, after an ordinary disagreement he grabbed me by the neck, luckily my mom saw everything so he released me. The day after he come to me apologizing for this incident and I forgave him thinking it would not happen again. Unfortunately this was not the case, every time i did something without consulting, he was yelling at me, say that I am pathetic and no one cares about me. It led me to sleepless nights and stress, I started to fear him. Then uncle began to say that I'm not needed here and he is capable doing everything by himself. But he didn't do nothing and prevented me from changing anything. Thus the farm collapsed, animals where sold, the land was overgrown with weeds. It was painful to see grandfather's cherished farm vanish, knowing that things could have been different.

My mom saw how disappointed with life I become, offered not to sit at home but to move on. Then I began to look for a job, due to a small selection in the area I got employed by farmer three kilometers away from where I live for 450€ per month. It is not much but I am able to do something I enjoyed my whole life.

Sometimes when uncle gets angry he mention that it would be better to get rid of the farm. For this reason I decided to set aside what's left of my salary after each month, to buy out farmstead, that I can restore it and achieve my dreams. Sadly at this rate it may not happen, for this reason I ask for support.

Thanks for understanding