Help me get done my studying

Hello there, the first thing I want to say to you will not be my name as many of you would expect. That is because I am deeply ashamed. I can't tell a sad story about how sick I am or about some cool stuff I am developing right now. But I can tell the truth. I am studying mathematics abroad and I have already finished the bachelors program. This is the part where normally I get to hear stuff like how all of us mathematicians are so intelligent to have "made it this far" and so on.  The truth is that on a normal day I get up at 7.30am shower and then spend the day at university till about 4pm. Now I'm gonna eat something have a beak for maybe 2h and do a learning session till 10pm afterwards, depending on how much work I already got done during the day. This immense time is needed because I am simply a hard worker. I need to do much more to be as good as others and I'm definitely going to keep up with them!  In generations no one in my family got the chance to go to university since we were all workers. That's the reason I am not able to ask my family for help. They love me and would do anything to finance me ... they mean it. Not long ago they wanted to sell my mother's house of birth just to get me financed, but since it's precious to her I lied to them, telling I had gotten a studentship I didn't get, while actually I managed to get money by selling blood plasma. In fact I send them everything I can so they don't need to sell that house my mother loves so much. I guess it reminds her of her own parents, she didn't have much time with. I don't ask for luxury, but for needed literature, rent and food. That's why I'm here and that's why I'm so ashamed to have to be here. I appreciate everything you want to support me with. I only want to study and have a better live for me and my family.