Help me end this cycle

Hi. I'm Rizal Hidayat. I study computer science in State University of Surabaya. Now i'm on last year of study. I am very proud to study computer science because this is one of the first steps of my dream.

But my happiness stopped in the the second semester of first year. My family consisting of father, mother, brother and sister went on vacation. They already asked me to join but i rejected them because i have to attend some seminar in that time. Not long after that, I got news that the bus my family was riding in had an accident. All bus passengers were killed including my family. I don't know i should be happy or sad with this incident, but i'm live now.

In first and second year of study I used my family savings to sustain my living and study fee. In third year, I took a part time job. But the results of that work are only enough to sustain life, not enough for study fee. So in fourth year, i decided to take a break from study and take a full-time job. It enough for living and study fee, but i can't progress anything on study. Now, in fifth year, I'm in this situation again. If I choose to get a job again, my third or fourth year situation will happen again. The best choice for me is graduated from university and get better job. But I can't do that. So, I need your help to end this cycle.

Thank you so much.