help chris get out

Hi, there, here's Chris. I live in an abusive household while also am trans, and not out yet. My parents and even brother, who is 10 years older than me, can get pretty verbally abusive and sometimes physically. I get shoved up my throat so many stereotypes that make me sick to my stomach. It makes me unable to do stuff. Probably an ADHD issue that I haven't handled yet but I get so much backlash from my parents because I cannot make myself or force myself do anything except be on my phone and laptop because those are the only thing that give me some happiness. And once I do what my mom wants, it's still not enough. I get my laptop and phone confiscated constantly for something that's not even my fault and if I get mad and want them back, they say I am unhealthy and mentally ill and all sorts of things when they don't even look at themselves. Constant fights, abuse and all of that. I can't take this anymore. I need to get out of here. I don't want to end up doing something to myself.

The goal is pretty high because I need to pay my mom the laptop since it's in installments, not fully paid. Taking it with me might cause some legal issues since I am 18 and I don't want that, so I'd rather give her the money.

That's why I am asking you to help me. Even the slightest donation could help or just sharing it around. Thank you in advance. Have a good day.