Help a oboist

Everybody who has played an instrument knows that its not great when your instrument isnt working. Im one of those unlucky bastards that always have played on a rented oboe, in fact serveral oboes. Because the lack of use (oboists are not so common up here in Norway) and service on them, they didnt handle me suddenly playing a lot. When I was playing in the concertband, there were times when I coudnt go to rehersal because the oboe I was playing on wouldnt work properly or was on repair. Or when the instrument did not work the day before a big concert. Or all those lessons where my teacher had to do something with it. Some oil, a screw, a feather, there was always something. And as an oboist, there isnt easy to find a oboe for rental, not in this country, harder then to find a flute (sorry flutists, i have been one of you). I love the oboe, but not all that panic around the instrument. I also have been through a lot of fantastic things when playing the oboe. Lessons with people from the local professional symphony orchestra, both where I live now, and where I lived that time learning the oboe. I have played with youth symphony, two local amateur symphony orchestras and a youth chamber orchestra in Germany. I have had an amazing teacher who didnt gave me up and always was positive when I was talking badly about the several rental instruments. I really wanna show how great oboeplayer I can be, but the rental instrument (or lack of it) keep me from shining through. If you have heard my bitching or feel touched by my story, donate!