I would like to thank everyone for helping me out. I know this journey is not easy and I thank you for being with me all this time. I haven't started my chemo yet. I am always rushed to the hospital week after week for blood transfusion as doctors won't start my treatment until I am stable enough to stand the dose. I can't stand the pain anymore. Yesterday I went to medical city to get my radiotherapy schedule as they are the nearest hospital who can administer radiotherapy for me. However, my blood pressure drop straight down again and doctors rushed me to ER (again!). Nurses are having hard time to find my vain as my arms are still swollen. I am tired. I am so tired. It hurts a lot. The pain is too much! I know what's goin on inside my body. I know I am in trouble. However, every time I'm about to loose hope I can see my husband working hard to make sure I am breathing. Every time I close my eyes I can my mom staying awake to make sure I stay alive. Every time I am about to give up I can see my sweet little Briana running towards me asking me to comeback. I don't know how long I can take and I don't know far I can go from this journey. It's hard. It's really hard.
My brother's and relatives are in big trouble. Their girlfriends and Ex's are working together as well to help me out. Doing crazy things from selling online to the streets of nowhere selling Ukay-ukay just so I can stay alive. Going from one agency to another to get me PWD ID so I can get discounts from meds etc. I can feel all your sincerity and love. I wish I can do something to pay you all back. I wish I am on a different situation so I can be with you all everyday.
I miss going to work. I miss living a normal life. I miss everyone. I miss my self. Maybe one day, just maybe... Everything's gonna be okay...
Thank you all!
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