Emotional independence

Greetings friends, it's not about some major filanthropistic cause here so I'll go straight to the point..

I have come to a state in my life where I feel totally stuck, like being in a real prison, since I experienced severe depression due to being let down in the romantic field, friendship, and then also parental. I've been to psychologists and it just won't help. It all comes down to this: I always had radical ideas about freedom, that would just not be accepted, I need my space, my private life. (Yes, I have failed to manifest this successfully yet as you can tell...! ) I need to express myself in it's own strange ways without being afraid because this is the healthy way and not to follow some standard behavior patterns ! I need to get the heck out of here (father's house) because I am fading out and because I starve for freedom of thought, movement, emotion and whatever else can rejuvenate my spirit, since my dad is quiet a harsh and neurotic dude. I feel my soul getting weaker day by day. I currently have not the strength to get my own job due to anxieties/stress and I can't help but feel imprisoned in my own 4 walls.

This has been going on for quiet a while (about 2 years)

If only some kind people could help me raise a small amount to be able to rent a small apartment and get my own space, I'd be forever grateful to them and they would help me make a new start, without having to be subjected to my parents.

I don't want to promise you back anything but considering this goes well, I have a strong belief it will ignite my trait of giving back somehow as a thanks