Hello everyone, my name is Siel. My husband and I have been together for five years now. My first pregnancy was diagnosed as tubal or ectopic pregnancy and I lost my right fallopian tube. My Ob-gyne removed it because the embryo was about to erupt and continuously growing inside my tube. I just found out from my Ob-gyne that women who have history of ectopic pregnancy have a double chance of having another ectopic pregnancy.
Last 2010, my beloved grandmother died and it was the most depressing time of my life, a few weeks later we found out that I was pregnant again. However, I felt the same symptoms of my previous ectopic pregnancy and it made me so nervous and didn't know what will happen next.
I had mild spotting and cramps. We went to the hospital for a trans-vaginal ultrasound check-up and the ultrasound technician told us that there is nothing to worry because he can see a sac..but no embryo yet. Maybe another week it will become visible. We were somehow relieved after hearing that.
Although feeling relieved and anxious about being "normally pregnant," I felt there was something "abnormal" happening inside me. I've been having this blood spots for three consecutive days and as it happens, my discharge became more red in color.
We started to feel scared about why this kind of thing is happening to me, though it couldn't be an implantation bleeding anymore as explained by the doctor. We went to a expensive specialist, thinking since she's a specialist, she would be more knowledgeable. She gave me vitamins and medicine so I won't get a miscarriage. For the whole month I've been bleeding hard and I wasn't feeling normal anymore. I don't know what's happening to me.
We went back to the specialist for a new trans-vaginal ultrasound and to my surprise, the sac was gone....seeing my uterus like a deflated balloon on the ultrasound monitor broke my heart...It was like something hit me so hard that no words could come out from my lips.The specialist switched the ultrasound device to another angle and spotted a small cyst-like form inside my left fallopian tube. She never told me what was it. I wanted to ask the specialist but she told me "It's gone..I'm sorry, I will give you medicines to let your body naturally excrete the sac." My husband and I were heartbroken when we left the hospital. I remember him saying this to me that until now it plays again and again inside my mind " I do not know if I am going to be a father or not." It hurts to see my husband feeling so sorry for himself and for us. It feels sad because I have no idea what's God plan for us.
Two days after we went to the hospital, I felt a sharp stabbing pain on my left side, it was so intense that I feel like I cannot move and I feel very cold. It lasted for 30 minutes and because of the severe pain, I felt dizzy and cold and everything was in slow motion, and also I felt numb. My hands were all white like there were no blood flowing inside my body. I felt so sleepy and tired and I could already see white lights. My husband rushed me to the nearest hospital and we didn't know that I was having another ectopic pregnancy. We cannot believe it was another ectopic pregnancy though the specialist told me my body is in process of having a miscarriage.
The new Ob-gyne who performed the emergency surgery told us she is 100% sure it was an ectopic pregnancy. She opened me up and told me to hang on. I was already critical and losing a lot of blood that my husband bought a pack of blood from another hospital just to replace the blood I lost.
After the operation, I was asking my self "why?" I wish God just took me than to leave me like this. I'm useless, I am incapable of having a child....what if my husband leaves me? That was the most distressful time of my life. The new Ob-gyne told us I was about to have a twins. My husband's father has a twin so it is possible for us to have twins. The sac that was seen by the ultrasound technician was gone because there was another embryo got stuck in my fallopian tube. While the embryo was growing, at the same time it was bleeding and poisoning the other embryo..only In Vitro Fertilization could help us now.
It took me a long time to realize and accept the fact that, hey! I don't have tubes anymore, I am incapable of having a baby. Ever since then I started to think that life is the most precious gift that God has given me. Right now, I am working as a teacher in a Thai public school in Bangkok and my husband works as a freelance web designer.
We've been saving money for the treatment but our income is not enough to afford IVF treatment. I know time will come God will grant us a child or children through the charity of other generous and kind people out there. We are looking forward to those kind people who would like to give even a little amount to help us in raising funds for our "DREAM BABY.
Your money donation to our IVF treatment will help us greatly in our quest for that little baby.
Thank you so much and Thanks God. God bless you all. :) :) :)