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On November 5th, at about 21.00, my dad started to vomit and could not stop until he had nothing to vomit anymore his stomach was big and made strange noises so we decide to call an ambulance.

After 2 weeks in the hospital and many, many investigations, they had seen on a CT scan that he had colon cancer and they decided to operate on him.

I began to ask around for help to get him to a bigger hospital with better surgeons and I asked for help on almost all social platforms.

I found some people who are literally millionaires and know for a fact that I mean 100% sure and begged for help.

Gave them all about me, even screenshots of my ID, and was willing to give any kind of proof but the answer was blunt, NO.

On November 19, at 10.00 in the morning, my dad signed up to get operated on.

We were called in the afternoon to go to the hospital and talked with the doctor he said that the operation was good that they removed all of his colons and that the next 48 hours will be critical and after that, we might have some hope that he will make it.

I went to see him and he was intubated and cold like he was dead, but I talked in his ear and he heard me and moved a bit his eyes(they were taped).

The next day, he had the tubes out, an oxygen mask, and full of bags going thru is the body(urine, blood, fecal matter).

He was all swollen because his body retained so much water and he was in so much pain that I am crying as I am writing, God is my witness.

He kept saying that his feet hurt, his back hurt but most of all, his but(ass) hurt over and over and over.

I tried to make him strong and told him to be strong so I can take him home.

I will never forget it ever and it was like yesterday: Yes home, let's go home.

To see him in so much pain...I wish that no one sees a loved one in so much pain.

The next day, he could not talk anymore and was breathing very fast thru the oxygen mask.

I put my hand thru his head and he nodded a bit, he felt me.

The next morning, on 21 November, he died.

Because all the time he stayed in the hospital and did not eat anything except what they gave him thru tubes, his body was so weak that all of his organs failed, that is what the autopsy said, and also that he had had any protein left in his body.

After being paralyzed for almost 27 years, cancer killed him.

Atho I was in shock, the next day I asked, begged again for help everywhere, and went to beg again those people that I know can afford it to help me bury him.

You all know or maybe you know how expensive a funeral is and especially how expensive a coffin is.

I remember I was on a video call and was literally beginning on my knees(i will never tell who, where, why, how, and so on).

The answer I got was no I can't, no I won't, and no answer at all.

Yes, one person said directly no I will not help you.

Was willing to show any kind of proof.

I and mom bought the cheapest coffin we could find and tried to keep as cheap as we can and we somehow managed it.

You cannot even imagine the hate we got from family members because the funeral was cheap and the judgment and some family members were saying that they are embarrassed, and some stop talking to us.... horrible.

We still hear rumors to this day,3 months later, people and family judging us because we can't afford but a wooden cross for his grave.

But no one seems to care and/or understand that with my dad gone, one income has gone and now my and my mom live only from my disability(yes I am disabled).

Now my mother she became depressed and she is starting to feel sick and tired each day.

She has Hashimoto, problems with her heart(a stent implant also), her thyroid, back, and liver, and she can not see with her glasses anymore.

She hasn't been to a checkup in years because she has no health insurance and we can't afford it before not to mention now.

Since last night she has started to feel bad, with high blood pressure, pain in her chest, tiredness, and also depressed.

I went on all platforms that I know, I begged for help from whoever I can find, and to no answer.

The only messages and answers I got were full of hate, judging me, calling me names, saying that I look for pity, or trying people to feel guilty or guilty trip them.

I do not know what to do, where to go, or who to ask for help.

I swear to God that I do not know, I run and tried all options and the only one that I had left is this.

But to be honest, after all the negativity, judgment, and hate I got till now, I have low to zero hopes that even this cry for help would be heard or believed.

I feel like people have become more and more selfish and they only help when is too late like for example, maybe someone would have helped me when I asked for my dad and could afford to get him better treatment, a better hospital, and better doctors, maybe he would be alive, maybe but I am sure he has had better chances of survival.

And yes, I did question my faith after he died and blamed God, but I had to accept it because nothing and no money in the world would bring him back.

Now my mom is feeling sick and my only resource is to ask again for the help. I honestly have no other choice.

Now it is your choice if you believe me or not and want to help me or not.

Life is all about choices and consequences.

I apologize if I repeated myself or misspelled it or offended anyone.

This was hard to write and my emotions got over me and it wasn't written before, I am writing how I feel, and what I need and I will post it.

If you made it to the end, I honestly want to thank you for taking you time to read my story and wish you and your family health.

Thank you.

I will also leave a Paypal and crypto address just in case.

This is my Paypal

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I put those addresses if you feel more comfortable and also you can track my crypto address.

And if you wonder about my goal,is becuase i need to take my mom to differetn specialists,oncologist, cardiologists,neurologist,pshichyiatrist and to find a good doctor to treat her Hashimoto's disease.