Can somebody with a heart of kindness please help me?

Hello everyone....

I am a 29 year old girl without much hope for this christmas, yet alone life itself.

I have been trough much heart ache over the last 3 years, that other people may or may not go trough in a lifetime.

I came out of an abusive relationship 4 years ago. The torture lasted for over 3 years, but I was too scared to walk away. I was too scared of this person, too scared to break it all off. It escalated 3 years ago when I got trown out of the appartment in the snow, freezing cold without my clothes on. I had to go to my neighbour to use their phone and call my mum to come and get me. After that they refused me to go back. They took care of me, made sure I was safe. Life went on from there.

2 years ago my mum went on holiday to Spain. I was working one monday, when my dad came in to the restaurant where I was working. He then told me that mum had died in Spain. I was then 27 years old. You can imagine, loosing my mum at that age. When I need her the most. My life fell apart. I think about her every single day! I miss her so much!! It is so difficult to go trough my days without her by my side.

As the months went by, I started to recieve bills sent to my dads adress. It was for rent over a long period of time for the appartment I lived in with my boyfriend who had abused me for so long.

He had stayed there for some time before moving back to England. I had my name down on the contract, as the main tenant. Now I have to pay it all. I have no chance. I work so hard, but the hours I put in does not make up for it. The bills keep coming!! Now its close to Christmas. One time of year that I used to love!! Now its heartache, stress and depression because of this massive weight I have on my shoulders.

Can someone kind hearted please please help me? So I can get my life back? To start living again? Please. I beg you!

- Best regards Carina - Merry christmas to you all!