I am looking for donations to put back my life on track for my fiance and my kid.

I am Christopher

I don’t know why I’m writing this but I guess its the way of crying out to you or looking for advice.

I think what I’m experiencing in my life someone out there is also experiencing it.

How can you say you have a family but you feel like you don’t have a family? I mean family is there to give you support ,not only financial support but emotional support, to support you when things are not going well in your life.

What if they just show you that they care about you only if you have something they want or benefit from?

 Is it wrong to wish that you can just break away from that family?

 So that you start your own chain of family, especially when you know that the same family could have done something to avoid the struggles in your life .

What do you do when things are not going well in your life and your parents are there but they do not give you any support?

What do you do when you try to build your family but no one is there to show you how things need to be done when you want to follow your culture?

When you try to find out about it they will tell you to pray.

 Really??? Is everything that simply? My whole point here is and my confusion is....

 I had a home and I lost it , someone told me that I needed to do something cause something bad is about to happen. I told my mum she said I must pray.

 My flowers around the house even my pot flowers started to die , I didn’t care.

 One morning my cat was lying on my lawn dead and didn’t notice. My friends told me something is not right.

 After a week my dog died , told my mum she said its devil I must be strong on praying.

 The next thing sheriff came to my house , the person I considered my wife wanted a divorce through stupid arguments I signed the papers but didn’t leave my house. She left me in my main bedroom and went to sleep in our daughter’s room.

 One night when I came back from work I was arrested, she had open a case against me saying I have raped my daughter.

I won the case but the court instructed me to leave the house because they thought of the danger of living together while the divorce is not through.

That is how I lost my home and everything I worked for. At that time I almost committed suicide but I didn’t.

Tried to put my life together and on 2016 I was offered a contract to go and work in one of the cruise ships for 9 months to 12 months. After the introduction to cruise ships life I decided not to take the job because at that time my father was sick.

Imagine, he was separated with my mother for more than twenty years, I reunited them because I could be able to do that knowing the importance of the family, hoping I will get a guidance from both of parents but that never happened.

Since then never been able to get a job and not getting a support from my so called parents not even and emotional support.

Relocated to Cape town again because of new fiancé she is from Cape town and we were expecting the child.

April this year we got our baby daughter and was able to find the job though is not paying well but I’m working cause need to look after my daughter and my fiancé.

Two months ago almost got died through heart failure but I survived.

Just when I think I am recovering , around 22:30 26rh of August I was in a car accident and I was using the very same car to support my family.

What do you call this??I am at the breaking point the only thing that is keeping me positive is my daughter and my fiancé.

Anyone out there who is able to assist me with a job or they know people who might help please help.

I am a chef by profession and I have code 10 plus PDP.

I can be contacted on this number , 064 542 8906.

Thank you for taking time and read my story and thank you for your inputs.