Our circumstances have changed, due to the emotional distress of losing Zachary and my job as a nursery nurse I have been unable to return to work, I went back to work for two and a half days and could not cope being around babies and toddlers. I am not bringing in an income and I'm not entitled to sick pay or even statutory sick pay as i reduced my hours after Zachary's death for my return to work. We had already ordered a headstone and paid the deposit when I had planned to return to work, we don't want to cancel the order and lose our deposit but more importantly we want our baby boy to get his headstone so some of the money raised is going to be put towards Zachay's headstone.