biggest dream i had

I know it's not very important, I understand that there are much bigger problems than mine, but I hope to get the money here to buy the equipment I need to start producing music. I was a performance athlete until 2014 when I was discovered with spina bifida and I was forced to stay in bed for two weeks, eventually I had to give up. My parents are old and I would not want to put so much pressure on them, I work but salaries are extremely low here 300-400 euros I had a very long period of depression and I lost all my friends in that period, I try to recover and put my life in order. I will not put much here but can be found on what's up at 0756372035 for those who want to know more about my life, honestly I'm at least ashamed that I ended up doing this, but I can't find another solution.