A Dog against anxiety

Hi, my name is Josy, I'm 21 years old. I've been diagnosed with depression, bad anxiety, borderline and an ed (eating disorder). There happened a lot of bad stuff in my life. Being bullied, caring for my alcoholic mother since I'm 12.

My dog always helped me maintaining a constructed life. Made me feel loved and not lonely. I got him when I was 8 and he was my souldog. Sadly he died last year because of cancer, he was 12 years old. Since then I can feel how my life went downhill and everything got worse again... I feel empty, lonely, stay in bed all day and rarely leave the house. One of my biggest wishes is to have a small dog (like a Chihuahua/Yorki/Pug) that gives me love and a purpose again. My problem is, I can't afford to adopt/buy a dog. (I live in germany, adopting here is a bit different). We don't have much money.. but it's ofcourse enough to feed a dog. My only problem is the cost of the dog itself. That's why I made this fund page. It would mean a lot to me if someone would read and understand this.

As for some details. I'm living with my mum (who is clean over a year now!) in an apartment outside of a big city. We have a big balcony and many green places around here. So it's not a bad place for a dog!