Postpartum depression is no joke.
After giving birth to my second son Kion, now two-months-old, it took only a little less than two months when symptoms of postpartum depression kicked in. I never experienced this with my first born, Kellin, over two years ago. I am scared.
I never thought I would ever publicize my situation and why or how it has come to this. I want to give my sons a better chance at life and I know I can't give them that if I stay with their father. I have been working as a freelance writer for a few years now but have not had a chance to save anything thanks to the toxicity that is my partner. I lost everything and everyone who I felt safe with because of my desire for my children to have a complete family. I know that it is my fault for allowing him to take over our relationship, but right now I am scared for my life. I am scared not of him, but of myself and what I am capable of doing especially whenever the depression hits.
Lately, I have been suffering panic and anxiety attacks which I cannot control. I keep being bugged by the idea of wanting to hurt myself and the kids which have been leading me to hit myself in the head with my fist or banging my head on the wall. I want to get help, but no one can hear me. I am scared of what I may be capable of, and I just want things to be better.
I am creating this GoGetFunding in order to get the proper help that I need as well as to be able to have enough funds to leave my partner and move as far from him as possible to give my sons a better life. Any amount will be highly appreciated as it would be one step closer to us being free from the clutches of a toxic relationship which has been causing me to spiral deeper into depression.