you don’t even have to donate I just want help

Hi, In 2009 at the tender age of 21, I had to grow up really fast, I missed out on so much and I am still suffering from these events of what happened to me, to this very day. What happened, well sadly to bullet point it: I lost four memebers of my close family to cancer, my friend died in a car accident, my boyfriend father passed away from cancer, my mother was diagnosed with bowel cancer, my parents were arguing all the time and nearly split up, we nearly lost our house, myself, my mother, and my father were involved with a 90mph car accident (another driver hit us, he was drunk and had fallen asleep) And a very personal tradgedy happened, Through all of this, I was struggling to complete my degree course. My dream, the only thing that kept me going through all of the darkness was my degree. I was training as a silversmith, goldsmith and jewellery designer. My art, and creativity kept me alive. In my final year of my degree, I started to feel ill and no wonder I guess from all of the heartache and stress. I went to my doctor every month, who was a family friend to cut a long story short , and after falling ill on a holiday trip (which was utterly terrifying) I found out the devestating news that would change my life forever. I was diagnosed with a type of agressive lung disease, the damaged lung had to be removed quickly due to the risk of cancer. I was 21 years old, and I underwent a grooling operation to save mylife. I had managed to finish my degree, but spent the most part of the following year recovering. I am pleased to say now, I am a healthy fit 26 year old. I am ofcourse eternally grateful, and I have managed to run several small charity runs, I hope to run a full marathon next year (it will hurt like hell) but I know how lucky I am, so I want to push my body and mind to do it. So whats the problem you ask? I missed key opportunitys to find work with my dream degree, I trained as a silversmith goldsmith and jewelelry designer. No one would offer me work at first, as they said I wasnt ready. Six years on, I am struggling to get bye. No tools, no money to buy or rent equipment. I have exhausted every avenue, twitter, facebook, linkedin, I ask anybody and everybody for help, grants ect, I apply for work every day. I just need some money to get some tools, get some materials and create and make. This is what makes me happy, its my therapy of all that has happened. If you cannot donate, and you can only offer advice or help or words of support trust me that is enough. Thank you so much for reading, if you have any questions please ask :) xxx