Wanting a Baby Girl..

I am 33 years of age and a mum to 4 beautiful boys (14years, 8years and twins 6years) and 1 daughter (8 1/2 months).

My husband and I live in Australia with our children, he is a Farmer and I am a stay at home mum caring for our children. Unfortunately on January the 18th 2012 our daughter was tragically taken from us by SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome) in her sleep. This has left our family absolutely devastated, shattered and with holes in our hearts. She was the icing on the cake for our family, seeing that we had four boys.

She was the most happiest, carefree and content baby. She slept through noise, especially with the racket of the boys running around or the sound of the Vacuum cleaner. A true angel to have around!

My husband and I would dearly love to have another baby girl, not to replace Matilda but to heal our broken hearts. It's so hard to explain to people how having a little girl made me feel. I gave birth to her, nurtured her, was her guardian and then to have her taken from me, it's such a painful experience. Girl's and boys are so different, I have four healthy and happy boys and I just want to feel the love again between a mother and a daughter, it's such a special bond.

I have already had 4 cesarean sections as I can't have a natural birth due to my pelvic bone. I wasn't planning on having any more children but now we would love to have another, but my private obstetrician advises me that the limit with him is 5 Caesarean sections. I would desperately love to try for a girl and I really only have i last chance.

So I am really wanting to go over to the United States to have Gender Selection, as it is banned in Australia. I know that people may say "it's playing God' by doing this but from one parent to another, I want people to understand that it's so painful having something taken from you that you have always dearly wanted for such a long time. It's like having a passion for football. You love it, live it, play it with everything you have but then one day having a car accident and having both legs amputated. Then there is that tragic loss of loving something so much but never being able to ever play it again.

So I am asking from the bottom of my heart for sincere help from people that may know what it's like to lose something so precious to them. My husband is a Farmer and due to the drought and poor farming conditions we don't financially have enough money to fly over to the U.S. and undergo the Gender Selection process. I have emailed various clinics all over the U.S. and the cost is up to $20,000.

We are a genuine Australian family, just wanting to heal our broken hearts by making our dream come true!