Universal Language

For 10 years I've been trying to buy some new musical gear so I can express myself,show my emotions, share them with other people.. But with no luck.. Lot's of bad things happened in past few years, my ant died in a car accident, my grandmother from brain injury , and my father from cancer.. So all of my savings, for something later on in my life has become a pool found for all of them.. Now.. With my salary, rent, kid etc.. I just can't afford it.

Help me buy some new gear..