Thank you for dropping by. My name is Keziah and this is my story!
About 12 years ago, I got a message that change the course of my life. I was already a private tutor back then in Indonesia and I never thought that I would do what I do today. But I guess life is about taking risks and striving to do better. I left everything behind and I moved here to Thailand to pursue a degree in Education and Psychology. With injured knees and overweight luggage I embarked the journey alone and I never looked back.
University was tough. Many had told me that university would be the best time of my life! Well… Not really! Betrayed, bullied and poor, I was lucky enough to had met wonderful people such as my bosses and very few close friends who supported me mentally, physically, financially and spiritually. Well.. then.. They had to leave. I continued to work hard and financial support were still continued on even after they left but it wasn’t enough. I was taught to press on but how could I? I had few people to talk to, my study and work of course but at the end of the day, people are for themselves. Never had it crossed my mind that I am depressed but yet on my junior year, I attempted suicide.
When I got back from the hospital, I stopped learning psychology to understand myself better, I stopped being a “mind reader” and was at the lowest point of my life. I learned so much and yet I knew nothing. However, I began to admit my feeling of despair. I continued my medical treatment and counselling. I had some good people – one of them who is now my husband – who helped me deal with my depression and I have been out of medicines for years now.
So.. what’s the point of this sappy story which I hope didn’t bore you? Well, after graduation, of course with the education that I have, I won’t be able to become a psychologist (NOT YET!) so I looked for the perfect master’s program in psychology that fit me. After 5 years, I made up my mind that I will take neuropsychology because I got to open up people’s head nah.. I’m just kidding... go on.. continue reading to find my “WHY”
Many of you may know but seriously though…Mental problems are real! I have read statistics and to be honest, I am not surprised. The problem is.. many people aren’t aware of the damage they cause us. Do you know that depression alone cost 1 trillion dollars in productivity per year? And there are about 3000 people die of suicide each day?
Anyway.. Neuropsychology doesn’t just deal with psychopathological disorder. We learn about other brain problems like Korsakoff disease and stroke.. and stroke is the second leading cause of death.
Being a neuropsychology sounds cool, right?
2 years ago, I applied to some universities in Canada but I waited and waited.. One rejected me with no reasons and some didn’t give me any responses at all! And so I stay in Thailand. I continue being the best tutor EVER! I love my job and my students and I feel like I finally belong. BUT I can’t shake the naggy feeling that I can do more than what I am doing now.
People often ask me why I want to be a psychologist. They say that I am doing such a great job teaching.. why change? Why it isn’t enough? I thought about it.. Then one day while I was folding my clothes, I watched TED video by Dr. Daniel Amen about the important lesson from 83000 brain scans. It reminded me why. After my suicide attempt, some people think that I would be incapable of many things because I am depressed. Some actually thought that I shouldn’t teach or get married 😊 BUT here I am. I am alive, generally happy and I believe I have made differences. I know why I want to be a psychologist. I don’t want to study psychology because I want to be a mind reader nor to get to know myself better nor that I want to heal the world.. I want to study because I want to give people chances. Not all diseases have cures but if there are things we can do to prevent it, or if there are treatments to ease even the slightest pain.. I want to be one of those who can provide them.
I tried again this year and 2.5 months ago, I received an email from Maastricht University in the Netherlands saying that I have been accepted in the program. I have given the chance to get the education I need to be a neuropsychologist and eventually build my own rehabilitation center. I just got my visa yesterday (YAY!) and the program will start on September 3, 2018. However, education is not cheap. The cost of the 1 year master degree program that they offer is 13,500 EUR which I have to pay upfront. Well.. sure there’s scholarship! BUT as an Indonesian who has been living in Thailand for 12 years, I am not exactly eligible for both scholarship and loan from either Indonesia or Thailand. Therefore, even with my savings and some donors from some generous people I know, I still need EUR 9,500 (USD 11,160/ THB 370,000/ MYR 45,000).
I am looking for people who are interested in sponsoring or giving me a personal loan so that I can study. I know that it is a big number and you may wonder what is in it for you.I can’t promise you that you can make a HUGE different and heal the world through me but I can promise you that I am trying my best to do the best in my education and pursue even higher education and become a psychologist that help people as much as I can.
For those of you who have helped me with the HUGE chunk I needed to process my visa and some of my tuition fee.. I am forever grateful. For those who are thinking of helping in either way (loan or sponsor), a million thank you and I pray that God will bless you abundantly!
If you have any questions, certain things that you want to arrange before supporting me, please feel free to contact me on [email protected]
THANKS AGAIN! xx