Firstly, thank you for giving this a read. I'll try to keep it short. [I've colored some sentences for a shorter read for those who may not be able to read it all or who may want to avoid some sensitive details.]
I'm trying to get out of my abusive home. I've got a mother who's a manic bipolar with huge substance dependency issues. She steals my money, breaks stuff of mine when she and as a recent example, she wouldn’t allow me to shower or use the restroom so I had to pee in the garden with my neighbors at full site.
I am the main source of income in the house and whenever she runs out, she forces money out of me. She tries to force me to show her my bank statements, she steals from my purse when I'm not around and breaks/takes my stuff if I don't give in. She moved my out of my room and in a block of a home without running water and I have to wash my clothes in the same tub I have to use to do my dishes because I went to the cops after she assaulted my brother. She has punched him, pushed him and thrown objects at him such as chairs and plates.
After the trauma counselor met my mom, she suggested I send my mom for a mental check up at an institution but all the public institutions nearby have reviews of disgusting behavior and an unsanitary set up. Additionally, my mom said that I send her for a mental check-up she'd kick us out. From experience, I know that to be true.
She tried to make me put down my dogs a few times too. (They’re originally her dogs but I've taken full ownership.) She’s made fun of the fact that I’ve almost been trafficked. Of one past relationship I let her know about, she interfered and tried to sabotage it often. This was after my prior relationship in which she went around telling people he was raping me (It was never true, she just wasn't satisfied with the person.) She's accused me of wanting to engage with the person she was recently with. There's been many incidents but I'll just say it’s been a bit of a ride.
I was not staying in her house for the past 2 years (18 – 20) and I’ve been the ‘bread winner’ for the house since I was 16. An issue brought me back as I made the mistake of giving 95% of my income towards my family since if I didn't, my mom would threaten me and accuse me of being selfish (& other euphemisms.) If I didn't lend a hand there'd be no lights, running water, food for my family or a house for them to stay (as my mom's in debt.)
Learning from this, I've been putting money towards the house I plan on getting that will fit my little brother and my two dogs, but it's moving a bit slower than the incidents that occur in the house (especially since my mom's manic episodes have increased and occur more often.) She’s threatened me on multiple occasions to the point that the neighbors are always checking up on me, and my little brother. He’s confessed to being suicidal as the physical/mental abuse with my mom has been rather intense with him as well.
I want nothing more than to be in a safer enviroment with my brother also taken care of. I would really appreciate your help. There is no such thing as a small contribution. It all helps.
I'm very grateful that you took the time to read this so thank you, regardless.
I hope you enjoy your day,