Giving up faith in finding someone is where I was at. Giving all of my love to people who just didn't seem to want it or appreciate it. Many of us have been in this same situation. Loving and having something go wrong. After losing so much in relationships I felt like giving up. I had stuff that I was in the wrong for in my past relationships, I wasn't perfect. Like many of us, I just wanted to find someone who would understand me and fight to stay with me. To literally love me through the good,the bad, and the ugly. Falling in love was already hard because I lost the love of my life when I was 15 years old. We Were so in love and irregaursless of what anyone else would think, you don't have to be an 18 year old or 35 year old to know what love really is. When I lost my first true love I gave up. It took a lot to get me back to being close to who I was before that tragedy. Because of my friends support and constantly being there , I was able to get through it. Not over it, but through it. It's still a struggle deal with. However I never thought I would find another love or soul mate in my life. Especially after several failed relationships I thought there was no use. So after my last boyfriend I decided to work two jobs and focus on making money.
That was my luck.
Starting to work two jobs. Working at a local gas station, never would have thought I would find the man of my dreams let alone, my future husband and best friend. If you would have told me in the past that I would fall in love with someone and get married to a man who was older, had children and an ex wife I would have laughed in your face. I don't believe in divorce. I don't want someone else's kids, I want my own.
So not true.
I walked in and the moment I laid eyes on him all I wanted to do was to get to know him. He wasn't just handsome, he had something about him. Something I hadn't ever seen before. A smile that gave me hope. Just being around him or thinking about him gave me butterflies. It made me feel as if I Were on top of the world
I needed to get to know this man that could make me smile in the blink of an eye. The next thing I knew He asked me out. ME!!! HE WAS ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN ME!!!?!
Of course he didn't realise I was younger, but he was kind of okay with that. The first time we hung out, we spent 12 straight hours with each other. Talking with my friend all night. Playing games talking, he made pancakes for breakfast, without being asked. He just offered. He was so smart and funny, so charming and handsome. Caring. Amazing. We went for a walk and just talked. From then on that was it. He was it. There were issues, like any other relationship there Were issues. But this time I had someone who didn't stop fighting for me, who I didn't want to stop fighting for. Someone who loves me for all that I am. And to this day I still look into his eyes and know that I'm madly in love with him that I'm still falling in love with him 4 years later. Now, I don't just love him, but I love his children too. I love our family. I can not wait to marry this man. But like everything else in life, it isn't that simple. We need some financial help.Were trying to raise money to help is have a nice wedding, nothing over the top, just something we can enjoy with our family. Like many other people we have been struggling financially. Were in love and want to get married. My fiancee pays child support and doesn't have a very big paycheck. Between paying for bills and struggling to make ends meet, we thought we would give this a shot and see if anyone who is able would be willing to help us, anything is very very much appreciated.