Treatment to Save a Life, Debbie Cellan’s Life!

Update posted by Debbie Cellan On Mar 27, 2016

Well my insurance stopped paying my treatment placement as of Monday, so I came back home on Saturday. What a journey. I have a long road ahead of me. A lot of work to do here at home. It has been more overwhelming being here at home than i thought it would be. Not sure I was entirely prepared for all this. I have some great tools that I learned and am excited to implement them in my life. Thank you all that supported me through this journey. It was not easy. The hardest parts were being away from my children. There were days that I thought I was just going to die from being so home sick and missing them. I knew though that I needed to get better for them and that gave me the strength to push through. Again, thank you to all that supported me. I am not entirely sure I would still be here if I didn't seek out the treatment and go away.

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Update posted by Debbie Cellan On Mar 01, 2016

Well I am leaving on Friday! I have purchased my ticket, but still hope that I will get more donations to pay for the rest!

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Casa Palmera will hold my bed until 03/05/2015.

Debbie Cellan

Update posted by Mar 01

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My bed will be held until 03/05/2016. Share my link with anyone. At first I was being selective in who saw this. I am no longer. I know I need this.

Debbie Cellan

Update posted by Mar 01

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Well, today marks 2 weeks into my treatment it’s been rough. I think the hardest part is being away from my kids, obviously. The other hard part was doing my first step. In doing my first step, I had to face a lot of things about myself that I wasn’t aware of. The biggest revelation that came out in doing my first step was how dependant I was on my pain medicstion. My pain medication really controlled my life. This was hard to process as I never wanted to believe that I truly was an addict. I have a lot of amends to make once this journey ends. The next scary thing that is about to happen is I won’t have any more pain pills to take as of March 20th. They didn’t just take me off the meds, which I would have preferred. They did a slow taper. What’s ironic is that Severen birthday is March 20th and that is the day that I can say is my first day of not taking any pain medication. This was ot planned, so it was so ironic. I am looking at it as if it is a birthday present for Severen. Mommy not taking pain medications any longer. Now the next step is to figure out how to manage my back pain without the medications. This part is also scary. I used this medication to mask that pain for so long, to work out, that this taper of the meds, I have been in immense pain. I could totally see how I would relapse if I was not in treatment at this time. So, when I came out here I thought 30 days would be it. They are now trying to talk me into staying longer. They feel that I would benefit more from an extended stay. I do see how it would be beneficial, and I probably should consider it, but I am not sure I could go much longer without seeing my children. We can afford for me to be out of work. There are to many obstacles in the road that interfere with me staying longer. Finances being the biggest one, and of course being immensely homesick. So, I don’t know. We’ll that is all I got for today. Thanks again to those that donated to my cause. And to those that couldn’t donate but are pray I ng for me. Thank you, the support is so much appreciated. I mean what I say when I say, you all have done more for me than my own family has. I’ll of course post again.

Debbie Cellan

Posted On Mar 18, 2016

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Well, its been 2 1/2 days since I have been here in treatment. Typically you are supposed to detox off medications that they deem inappropriate to take. For me it would be the pain medication and Klonopin. However, the doctor didn’t want me to do get off of them till he saw me on Monday. This was frustrating for me because I had the mind set to get off these medications. So, I took it upon myself to get off of them myself without any medication that the facility would provide to help with any withdraw side effect. What a wrong choice to make. I was and felt like I was dying. My whole body hurt, my blood pressure was through the roof. The nurses keep saying you need to take the medications, because we can’t give you the medication that would help. I finally had to give in and take the medication. This was so irritating because I was in the mind set of getting off of them. Now I am nervous about what is to come when they do take me off of them. The facility is nice. I get to wake up, grab a cup of coffee, step out side and see and hear the ocean, what a beautiful sound and sight to see. I am not allowed to have my phone or Ipad until I reach level 2. However, I told them that I needed to listen to music when I sleep, that if I didn’t ’have the music I couldn’t sleep. They allowed me to keep my Ipad, but no access to the internet. I asked my roommate if the music bothered her, if she could hear it. She kept telling me no. Then last night, staff approached me and apparently she had been complaining about my music. I was so angry. I began to cry, thinking, I kept asking her if the music was bothering her. (2) other patients asked me what was wrong. I told them. I then turned the i-pad on and they said they couldn’t even hear the music. So, I came to the conclusion that it was all about the I-pad. I was so furious that I just didn’t think I could be her roommate. I ask about being moved. Well she gets moved to one of the houses and i have to stay in the nurses house. I felt like I was being punished. It was a difficult night, I truly was ready to just go home. I then was able to skye my kids, which reminded me why I am here. Then getting on here and this reminded me that i have backers who are supporting me while I go though this journey. Today, I guess is going to be a hectic day. I am anxious a bout it. But excited to get my treatment plan set in motion. Thank you all again for supporting me. One last thing. Even though I am still here. I still need the support so please continue to share my story. I continue to hope that I get fully donated by the time I leave here. They are going to not take full payment until I leave. So I wrote them a check for what was donated thus far so please share. Thanks again. I will continue to keep you all posted.

Debbie Cellan

Posted On Mar 07, 2016

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Anita- Thank you for reminding me that I am valuable to people. I have forgotten that I have a role in helping others. You were one of my favorites. Thank you for your generosity I think of you and the other girls all the time. Always hoping that life is treating you well. You truly are an amazing young lady. Thanks isn’t enough!

Debbie Cellan

Posted On Mar 07, 2016

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Where would I be without you?? I am so grateful for your help and support in my time of need. Because of your help I am able to live a happy life and I will be praying for you to have the same. Just the other day I was thinking of walking around Rimrock with you when I was so sad and anxious. You knew the break was exactly what I needed. How can I ever thank you for all you have done for me? I pray that you have people as wonderful as you to help you through. Please take care and know how much you mean to so many!

Anita

Backed with $100.00 On Mar 05, 2016

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Thanks to the recent donations. I wasn’t sure I’d get any more. Thank you for helping me get the help I need. Truly much appreciated. I am driving to the treatment place now with much anxiety of the unknown. Those that donated made it possible. I plan on keeping a blog so you all can go on this journey with me to see how your contribution truly helped someone with a mental health illness. Mental health illnesses is a disease not talked about but you that supported me made me feel like there was nothing to be ashamed of to get the help I needed. Luke I have said you all have done more for me than my own family has in my entire life.

Debbie Cellan

Posted On Mar 05, 2016

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Anonymous

Backed with $50.00 On Mar 04, 2016

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I'll be praying Debbie! You are worth the hard work of this journey!

Leanne Swanson

Backed On Mar 04, 2016 Amount Hidden

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Thanks to the recent donations. It is so much appreciated.

Debbie Cellan

Posted On Mar 04, 2016

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Anonymous

Backed with $100.00 On Mar 02, 2016

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