Under the influence of the drug, WangXueQuan slightly relaxed some, point up the cigarettes, he said a lot about his life experiences: "I don't know the word, I don't know what the little things for your. When I the family is poor. We this place is not good, heaven the rain, the weather was fine flood water is gone, even drink of the water is not seek. About 1994 years, with relatives introduced, I know the one year younger than me. Know the ZhuGuangZhen soon, my father with a pig as price being paid, let me take her back. Married, my father told me, no matter how to also want to give birth to a son, and only son is his family. In 1996, ZhuGuangZhen gave birth, wang yan big daughter in 1999, the second daughter was born, wang mei puts her at the time of the village cadres for family planning move my wife and I, in order to avoid ligation of family planning, my wife and I left home. We are not hiding around culture, can rely on night in the county JianPoLan for a living. In 2004 the first son was born, we finally wang yunwu has one son, finally WangGuYou offspring. We also thought of home, can be heard that super living fine is very severe, we really don't have a fine money, we can only then the run.In 2007, the fourth little daughter was born, the home too many children, even the rice do not have enough to eat. In order to live, I also ran a few places where pick up scrap, let I tried dry, or not on the day of the food and drink not sorrow, every time of eating at home, wife and I said she would find a can let her eat satisfied rice man. Listen to a somebody else say to the small coal mines can earn more money, about 2008 years, I went to a black coal mine to work. When I go to the boss is not, even pay wages are not talking about in the case, direct began to dig coal. The second day, I and eight workers under together well, let me go in front, the results front suddenly caught fire. The people behind a see fire ran, I also like to run, but the fire has burned come over, I what all don't know....... And I slowly senses, see on the leg of the trousers have been burned didn't, the leg meat also burn black, then the workers sent me to the hospital, lived about half a month time hospital. Later, the boss sent to a man said to me, let I'll hospital discharge, say they have to help me enough, can't give me any treatment. Actually I also has not seen the boss looks like what coal mine, I also don't know him, see his legs burning not like, can't actually on, I'll ask the boss to help my leg healed after hospital discharge again, but he left without further ado. The second day, hospital doctors can seek me to medical treatment cost, I said no, doctor let I immediately from the hospital. No way, I can only working up the courtyard was released from the hospital. But, I still want to thank coal mine boss, he was leaving the hospital sent someone gave me 500 dollars, say to my aid. Later it was said that I can get the boss a lawsuit to some money, I didn't read books, also don't know what to say, my home is no relatives of culture, no one can help me find the boss a lawsuit, I more don't know how to play this case. Don't say a lawsuit, I disability in the years following, my relatives and wife of brothers and sisters no come to see me. To return home from the hospital, I have completely into the basket, the home of the house also collapsed, person in the village see I really poor is for someone to help me take the thatched tent. See I'm completely became a cripple, my wife and I said she didn't want the home, don't I, also do not several children. I cry to keep her, my wife and said, 'you cry to you see, don't give me. 'she eventually went on. I get up, and no way to stop her, specific her where to go, I also don't know. Just before leaving, she said that if she don't walk again, rely on less than 2 acres of family dry land, the whole family will starve to death. Well, I have no disability before don't like smoking, now I love smoking, smoking when I can forget the trouble, do not have money to buy smoke, and I will let the children from school of point don't waste, roll up when the smoke, as long as can smoke. Now I really more dead than alive, I originally didn't burn, home is poor, but I can also help to poor home to work, the children fell down I can hand in the past, now I can no longer do anything to lie in bed waiting for death. Last month, I slowly climbs down, to the door of the tree commit suicide by hanging, was the older daughter discovered, did not die. The older daughter wang yan had years also 17 years old, in local full of such girls ChengGuSheng child, but I won't marry her, I was afraid I daughter find men who for a family, my wife would not come back, who will help me and some children to cook? The toilet who help me? My daughter and I said the best wait until she by the age of 20 to marry, daughter now is I help straw. Recently, we DeWei here came to my home secretary, he said to me, is a person to depend on oneself, don't GuAo, want to rely on his bitter rush can succeed, and at the time I didn't say anything, you say me this dying man still how bitter rush? Do??????? I also know that by somebody else to help all can't, I don't really have the ability to do? But still, thank you very much for us secretary of the township party committee, and he knew that I, come to my home for several times, see I don't even live not to house, he has tried to help me build a house, because I am not in the number of 2009 bentley, secretary of the village first let CunZhiShu pay to cover the house, in the future to the country such as money again back to party. Listen to party said the house still not to cover with the 17800 multivariate, also must let me out of a part of the money to cover up, and at the time I said, want money no, want life have a rotten. This year I have just on normalizing the subsidies, heard while it can get a few money, thanks to the township government help me. I want to see the doctor, I want to stand up, I want to live, now I like this one can only, afraid of you joke, the home be poor even afford salt, several children wear clothes are picking up the somebody else the child's old clothes. Sometimes see their children too poor, I would make the older daughter find friends or relatives to borrow money. But the somebody else say what also do not borrow, who all understand, and so I borrow money can be borrowed and never returned. In a word, the more you say more sad, I every day now lying in bed have been look outside, though I know wife outside must have men, but I still hope the wife back, hope my son grew up early, to go to school, I have no culture, I don't know what truth, for some of my daughter, I'm not going to let them go to school, daughter big eventually want to get married, or empty glad a, so I let son eat more, let her daughters to eat less, all my hope in him, sometimes see son, I won't dead. I want to live, I dead son? I die a day, few of my doll at the very least, a father can shout, if I died, some of my children even shout father all not a line. If you give me a chance to stand up, I will work to coal mine and make more money, let my wife and kids put on new clothes and eat with oil on the food.