Trapped in the wrong body

Please Read.

My name is Alexandra and I'm in love.

His name is Timothy and at 22 is man of God, loves his family and is a beautiful human being.

When I first met Timothy I was instantly captured by his gentle eyes and his amazing heart.

He is the type of person to always appreciate the silver lining and embrace the things in life he is graced with.

Lying in bed one day I smiled at the gentle eyes I was slowly becoming accustomed too. He lay there, looking down unable to meet my gaze, my fingers slipped under his chin to lift his spirits, his eyes met mine and for the first time I saw a hurt there that made his warm hazel eyes a dull hue and that's when he first told me of his twin sister who had died as a child.

I saw the hurt as tears streaked across his cheeks and left a glistening down his profile.
I held him so tight and we just lay there silently.

At times I'd see that far away vacancy in his eyes and I knew he was thinking of her but I'd never push the subject.

We we're patient with each other physically and mentally and as each day passes we still are.

But one day we sat in the car and instantly my heart felt a heavy ache it hadn't felt before. I felt an anxiety creep over me and my throat constricted as I looked over to him.
He wouldn't look at me.
"Alexandra I need to tell you something." At that very moment I felt like I couldn't breathe but I sat up and listened ever so carefully.

"My twin sister..... It's... It's me....
I was born female.
I inhaled deeply.
My heart slowly became rhythmic again and I parted my lips to speak but I fumbled over my words, instead I smiled. "And?"
I'd never been in this situation before, my brain was confused and sought so many answers. 'But I'm not attracted to women?' 'How is he so masculine?' Does he have breasts?.....other certain physical traits?' My eyes searched and searched but all I saw was a man and a beautiful person who was being haunted by his own skin.

I've never been one to judge a person on how they look, however my own insecurities can get the better of me but I could never imagine feeling the way he does if I was in a man's body.
After all I am a Woman and he is a Man.

This page has been created secretly to help us on our Journey to make timothy's outside match how he feels on the Inside and the First step is Top surgery.
Meaning removal of his Breast tissue.

I accept Timothy exactly how he is but I support him in every decision and this is what he wants to do however financially we both need some help and every little bit would go towards you making a huge difference in his life.

Thank you for reading.

Love Alexandra