Support Unemployed Mother in her Healing
3 years ago, I was a executive with a stable job in an MNC. I was happily married and seemingly satisfied with life. I was able to perform in my career, and contributed enough to my family as well as to my parents. I bore a child and thought all will be well.
I first had signs of eczema since I was 9 years old. My parents did what they best thought to do: bring me to a dermatologist. One doctor after another, steroid creams after steroid creams, my eczema nightmare started and wouldn't leave. By 14 I was on full-strength Betamethasone and steroid pills on and off. I was given leave for any physical activity and started being on strict diets. We explored TCM and each time I reacted badly, my parents were so fearful of their daughter having scars we almost always stop at the 2nd month of any alternative treatments and returned to steroids. This carried on well until I was pregnant at 35.
I kinda resigned to the fact that I may forever be itching and be seen red and blotchy. Quality of life is less than desirable but I managed. Friends who are close to me are understanding and always give in to my diet restrictions / skin care timelines / avoidance of environment triggers.
This was until I started to do more research upon steroid side effects showing up during my pregnancy and breastfeeding period. I was so afraid of my son getting eczema I read so extensively on it. Have I not done this I wouldn't have known about Topical Steroid Withdrawal. People have been healed and get such good quality of life by stopping steroids, but have to go through intense pain, itch and inability to do simple tasks such as brushing teeth or tying shoe laces for around 2 years. The more success stories I read, the more I was convinced this is the way to go for a healthier me in the long run.
I am on the right track but the costs are heavy. I started with swelling eyes, face and limbs. Then there was the shivering regardless of how hot Singapore is. I really look like a drug addict on rehab. Skin started to ooze plasma (blood water) and wounds cracked and wouldn't heal. Within 1 week of the withdrawal I had to seek long leave from job. Judging from other cases, me and hubby have planned for 2 years starting July 2014 for me to return to work. I had to be separated from my family to be taken care of by my own mother, and my son didn't have a real mother since he was 6months old. Despite bleeding calves and fingers I went back to work Oct2015 for my kind employer but was shortly terminated after 5 months. Everyone could see I was really trying but my work performance fared badly. I had to take toilet breaks to tend to my wounds and rest from the air-con exposure every hour.
Throughout this withdrawal period, other than stopping steroids, I have been on different TCMs, supplements, water filtration systems, Ayurveda treatments, NAET,...... What finally is working for me now is a Sinseh who knows steroid withdrawal by skin patients exactly as I have experienced it, and essential oils. Doing these treatments concurrently has finally set off a better rate of recovery and I am anxious to become a real mother, daughter and wife again!! I am now back with my son who has just turned 3, but of course, he needs time to understand exactly what a mother is or why I was missing for 2 years of his life.
But till now in my 3rd year, I am still unable to work and my hubby's
single income from his traditionally unstable job is difficult to sustain my son's education and househould
expenses. As I am still hardly functional, we hired a maid to wash my bandages and clothes separately from my family's laundry. Also she has to boil my herbs and wet-wrap me every morning and evening. My son still sleeps with my mother-in-law and I still cannot do my motherly duties of showering him or caring for him. I still flake like a snake changing its skin everyday, fingers are still swollen and bloody, I scratch endlessly like a monkey and my face still red and puffy no eyebrows and thin hair. i stink really bad n look crazy. I am still unavailable to my son, I cannot stand without scratching for more than 15mins! My medical expenses had been totally paid by my retired father
for the past 2 years. Being from a traditional Chinese family, I cannot
expect him to pay for me anymore as I am already married to another
family, and these are the savings for my parents' retirement!
My own savings are runnning very dry. I spend around $120 for TCM, $72 for essential oils, $15 for moisturisers, $10 for special shampoos and cleansers, much more for supplements, etc each week. I have advertised to work as a tutor, and applied for part-time jobs of short-hours in air-conditioned office. However, I am often rejected without given a reason. I also explored the option of working at home since I am a skilled accounts person, but I have no contacts and was given no opportunity to start home-based jobs. Some people see me and gets wary of me, I still get stares in the public. Many well-meaning folks approach me to recommend more western dermatologist, or some MLM product that costs like $3000 or something.
We are short of making space to rent out in the flat, or downgrading to smaller space. Still, I am aware there are many others in worse situations than me and deserve more help than me. But I must make this effort to save my position in my marriage and family.
Even if you cannot offer me monetary donations, please hear me out! In addition to money, I am really needing donations in kind, since I already know what really works for me and can shorten my period as an invalid. I would really like donations of DoTerra OR Young Living TEA TREE OIL ($36 each that lasts me only 3 days), I am willing to accept even opened bottles to save resources (don't waste them if you won't need them!!).
I am also hoping for self-sufficiency through home-based accounting jobs, or Principle of Accounts tutoring at my own flat. Please do refer me for opportunities
Any support, even PRAYERS is gladly accepted! Please PRAY for me, I do believe in the power of prayers. I am really depressed and on the verge of.......... To understand my story in more detail, do contact me! email [email protected] or watsapp me 83999298.
Lastly, thank you for considering me for your donation!