To Live Or To Die

Hello. My name is Oskar and im 23 years old. For 2 and half year ago i was robbed during an vacation to rhodos and my grandma died 1 week later and thats where it all began. I started gambling really hard instead of talking to someone. I shouldve stopped before i made those desicions . I should have stopped and just thought what am i doing but i didnt. I started taking loans just to gamble more and hide from the pain. I should have asked for help. I have now destroyed my whole life. Thats why im turning to my last option cause i cant do it no more. ive tried everything to solve this problem, tried taking a larger loan to pay off everything but i had to bad credit after all the other loans. Ive tried working double jobs so i worked 12 hours a day. I almost lost all of my friends because of that and my family wont lend me money for paying of the loan because they dont trust me. Ive been sober for 352 days. thats almost a year and still no one believes in me. I thank you all for reading and i extremely appreciate everything. im a happy person but its hard to enjoy life when it really sucks right now. im just lucky to not be homeless. so now you guys know how my life is...

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