Hey! My name is Tia, though I also go by Tj.
I'm a 24 year old woman who suffers from Anxiety, PTSD, and Suicidal Depression. And for as long as I can remember gaming and going online has been my only solace in life. I lost my dad at a young age, and the internet has been my safety ever since. Not to mention I do all my banking and Bill paying online now!
So when my computer died, I didn't know what to do. Living off of disability doesn't really leave you with much extra cash- and along with that I find myself lending money to my mother, whom I cannot say no to. which often times doesn't get paid back which leaves me with no type of emergency funding for me OR my cat, and I certainly don't have the money to buy a new computer!
The plan is to try and get as much help with this as possible- my mother is my only way to get into town and shop for essentials which leaves me dependant on her- while she doesn't have an issue borrowing from me constantly... and any funds left over will be put into an emergency fund- not to be touched unless 100% needed. mostly to be put towards vet trips for my cat Ganondorf if/when needed.
This is more then just a computer. This is my only access to the outside world outside of going food shopping once a month with my mother. The thing that keeps me alive- and I'm not saying that lightly. There are times when I feel like I'd already be gone if not for my friends online. I have no support in real life- so it's terrifying to think I'll be alone in the world again without this computer.