through the never

good day to all

..i don't remember how it feels to be unsure of whether i will live or die. I don't remember the worry, the fright, the pain; and therefore in some ways I don't understand what happened to me and how it feels to have your life and future at stake.

im irshad,36 years old,i had an motorbike accident early last year and ended up with broken tibia and fibula in my left leg,a broken left femur, my left leg was compound which means the break came through the skin.My left hip joint and both of my knees cap are dislocated. My left hand (radius and ulna) sustaine a multiple fracture.My jaw joint splitted and fracture on my lower chin, I should have died instantly. But I didn’t.. Ive been hospitalised for a month,and discharged with pins, rods, plates, screws, and k wire.Doctor advice is for me to rest for 2 years,but,as early as 11 month,i have to start working,i managed to get a job which paying me accordingly-to-my limited capability.so,im doing a part time job just to pay the hospitals debt on monthly basis,but i dont think i could settle the remaining amount before the dateline.I do save a little from my earning to start my own food stall business,i know i wont be able to perform as what most employer demanded..as much as its hurts,i need to find a way to move forward and live

thank you

regards