I have been suffering from throat neurosis for more than two years or maybe three years. I am embarrassed these days. I can feel that my nephew has something every second. I don't know how to eliminate it. Now that I am taking Chinese medicine, it may not cost as much as Western medicine, but it is true that I am unable to pay. This disease makes me unable to work. I don't want to be a useless person, but it's true that I don't have the ability to struggle out of the mud, no matter how hard I try. This time I want to use strength, not to rely on myself. If I can, I hope you can help me. I don't know if I can recover, but I don't want to give up. Many times the pain is not that you have not worked hard, but that you have worked hard or can not see hope. Just like I don't know if I can be cured. I thought about suicide, but I didn't. Maybe it’s not reconciled, maybe it’s the other, and I didn’t really let me do it. I didn't take the medicine all the time, because my family complained about the money, and it was useless to take medicine, and let me give up hope. But now I want to try again. My illness is fluctuating with emotions, and it becomes serious when angry. This time I still don't know the result, but I hope someone can help me and work hard with me. I don't know how to say this pain. When I play this text, I still feel very uncomfortable. Just like the scorpion is plugged every second.
In fact, it is not easy to say my things. Just like in life, I am worried that others will find me sick. Many times it is a pain that cannot be said. Just like there is no way to live like a normal person, and I am worried that I am known, but I now know that I am just sick, and I should not give myself so much pressure, so I tried to say it.
That's why I didn't show my photos.
I have tried to say everything, maybe there are still many, but I don’t know where to start.
Everyone is eager for light, but sometimes the endless darkness has made you forget what is light.