Therapy to get through rape and sexual molestation

Dear supporters,

My heart breaks talking about what happened when I was younger. I never had a childhood. I was sexually assaulted by my mothers second husband when I was 10 for 389 days. On one of the last days my mother stayed with him he raped me. I told my mother and his relatives. They ignored what happened. It hurt so much that I cannot tell it without crying. You know, the sexual molestation and rape took away my life. But even worse was the fact that my mother didn't and still doesn't believe me. One year after the incident my mother got back with him. I stayed away from him and stayed with my biological father (who is schizophrenic). He then raped my sister that didn't believe me at the time, too. I felt even worse. I should have protected my sister. I should have done more to protect her.

I have arrived at a point in my life where I want to have closure. Ten years after, I still wake up at night having a bad dream. I still close my eyes and see him in front me. I have done nothing. I have since been nothing. But I don't want this anymore. It happened to me. But I should use my knowledge and empathy to help others. However, before I can ever help others, I need a therapy.

Thank You so much! You don't know how much that means to me! All Love to You!