Therapy for depression and Hypnotherapy

I'm reaching out to the world for the help from all of you to overcome this illness. Last year at this same time of year, I was working a full time job and a part time job. I had recently moved into my own place with my dog Alice, she and I were the happiest that we could be. I had it made because of my full time job I was able to bring her with me and that was the best thing that I could have wanted since she was going on 18 years of part of my life. Let's see...things were swell for me. I didn't have much of a social life but hey! Who needs that when all I ever was searching for was me providing for myself? I grew up way too fast but married at 15 and became a mother to a son that I loved with everything I knew. I didn't realize it at least not at first but I was in a very unhealthy marriage that I didn't know how to get out of. He was very abusive both physically and mentally. He controlled every single day and thing that I did. I had to drop out of school because he accused me of seeing boys while at school. He said it would be best if I were at home with our son anyway and I couldn't deny that. He made me get a job so I got my first job at Town East Mall in Mesquite, Texas as a Sales Representative for Sunbelt Remodeling. I was earning a good amount of money and my husband stayed at home with our son. I thought things were on a straight path and this was what life was about having a family to come home to after work and plan for my sons future by being the best mom and wife I could. That was only short lived!!! The beatings and brainwashing were continuous. I was over 100 miles from any of my family and was forbidden to visit or talk to even a conversation on the telephone was monitored with hi my breathing over me, making certain that I kept it to myself the life I was living since I was was 15. It wasn't until 19 and a second child, another son that he took it too far and my protective and survival mode kicked in and i got my sons and headed to grandmas to tell her the truth about my husband that kept me prisoner and beat me was going to start the abuse with my sons if I didn't didn't run away from him and seek help. I did and me and my sons went to a family counselor for a year. He threatened me and my family for over a year and life was never the same after because I've lived life afraid to do anything because I was in fear of getting yelled at or beaten. The reason I'm sharing this is because for some reason my anxiety and panic attacks have taken over my life. I isolate myself and keep my illness inside but it's killing me!! I want to live and be able to work again. I need help to pay for my therapy...thank you for reading this