The story of my life and the desire to be happy again

Hello, my name is Cristian Conte, i have 25 years old and i was born in Argentina the 10 of september of 1991. This is the story of my life:

At the age of 5 my parents break up and from there i live with my mother and grandmother. My father came to visit me every now and then but over the years he visited me less. Resulting in an absent parent. I had a pretty sad childhood. I always had to learn alone the things of life. And my mother, although she lives with me, was never there either, she always cared about her own problems. The rol of mother was always played by my grandmother..

At the age of adolescence I started to sink into sadness. My father, the only person that cared about me began to form a new family with his lover having a new son. So the visits from him were gradually reduced from 1 every 2 weeks to 1 per month and so on.. My only escape to all this suffering started to be internet and online games. At the age of 16 I was very involved in that virtual world, I left school, didnt eat much or sleep, everything to be there. It was the only thing that made me feel good..

But it turned worse. I met a woman bigger than me in a MMO game. It was nice at start the first women i really exchange affection. But she turned out to be married and she did to me a lot of damage. That much that I ended up in a mental institude for a couple of months.

It cost me, but I could recover from that. So i started school again, and for the 21 of december of 2008 I found love again. This time a normal woman and the only woman in my life that didnt harm me too much. It was my first girlfriend and it was the most happy months of my life. Unfortunately could not be forever but it was worth it.

After all that i met another women that i knowed from years ago and talked but never tried something serious until we decided.. And.. this was the worse choice of my life and the reason why Im writing this. I tried to be with her this pass 3 years. But she fucked my mind. She played with me and even make me a headcache issue. She make me drop my studies and now at the age of 25 I cant find any escape to this. I cant have any job because of her and i cant study anything because i have nothing in my life that makes me happy. She take everyting from me. I cant start a new life and the headaches are chronic also.

All I want is to be able to stop suffering in my life. Being able to be happy, to be able to study and to have the life that I deserve after so much suffering. I want to be able to recover from my pain and recover my health. One of the few things that made me happy in life is to exercise and I would like to work as a professor of physical education.

I dont have the support of my family or anyone to start a new life. So this is my humble request. With anything you are able to help me ill be eternally grateful.

Thanks for taking a moment to read me.