The next step

Hello all, I am in a position where my every step forward, most importantly my every step forward in my earning capacity, is impossible due to a variety of ridiculous circumstances, and I am urgently requiring a bit of a helping hand.

I am embarrassed to ask for help, being one who often shoulders more then I can carry in efforts to avoid sharing what I see as my own burden with others, moreover being someone who easily helps others as I often do, I tend to be typical of my type in that I help others but don't extend the same kindnesses to myself.

I spend my all day every day doing anything and everything possible to generate income, save money, be a good mother to my daughter, and care for horses half of which are not my own but cannot survive without me.

As a result I cannot spend the time necessary on earning, and never have enough to pay towards earning more(ie hiring help etc), I am doing remarkably well considering but in light of a run of bad luck and drought my resources are depleted and my responsibilities increased.

This campaign is designed to generate funds through the kindness of others, to achieve the following

1. A lick of paint and a few basic security measures for my business premises which serves the community in many ways. I have to fix my oven and my fridge, as I am without both and cannot earn anything without them.

2. Build a round arena in order to train my horses that I might sell or use them, the round arena will also be used to help others in the community with their horses as part of a long term community project I am the founder of. I cannot move forwards without a round arena, I can't sell or train horses without one as people have destroyed the communal kraal I have previously used.

3. Collect funds necessary to achieve a driver's license, website host, business advertising and other matters that I cannot proceed forward without. I simply can not earn what I need to without the above and desperately need to earn a little bit more. I am doing everything myself to save money so my costing for this is minimum. But I have reached the point where I have to pay something small for the things I can't do.

4. I do not owe much but naturally there are one or two little accounts that I would like to close and may use a bit of the money for if necessary. I have been very responsible with my money and owe very little.

I have put the creation of this campaign off for a long time, out of embarrassment, but also unfortunately in the hope that other social and otherwise structures might offer assistance, this naive hope of mine has proved to unfortunately be a lost cause. I have exactly to much to qualify for a social grant and due to my being self employed I do not receive a pay check and can't get a loan or contract of any sorts, I don't have the experience of knowledge or paperwork or time to do more then work which isn't working right now.

Many thanks

With gratitude and humility

Grace xx