The last sad letter!

Hello, I decided to call this contact the last letter. For I hope it is the beginning of a path and with that '' letter '' the end. I'm 23 years old, I'm Brazilian. I come from a very simple family, do not know much about life, spiritual, other cultures in order. Life for them has never been easy. But as a good and rebellious teen I went to do classical ballet classes, and I can say that was the beginning of everything. Through art, I was able to meet classical music, other languages, countries ... my friends now were not only from school, but I was now traveling friends who had their own room, bought clothes in order, none of this I knew . And the more I walked out of this area I was raised, but I was criticized by everyone. The years passed, and I became better and better at ballet. I started to work handing out pamphlets on the sign so I could pay for my ballet costumes and that's where everything changed, again!

Since I was skinny, young and pretty, I started to do better jobs and better jobs, so I discovered that I could make a lot of money without being over 18, and from the age of 14 to 23 I work with events. Of course I do things much cooler today than handing out flyers on the sign, but I'll tell you about it soon enough.

Going back to the part that I started working with events, being beautiful, efficient, responsible, I grew very fast within the agencies of my city until the day I met Maria. I saw a vacancy on the internet to be receptionist in the confederation's cup in my city. I arrived before the appointed time on the day and I first saw Maria, who was desperate because 6 girls who would work together with me, said they would not go any further. I used to be desperate with her, or angry to know that she was going to work for me and for those who did not, I asked her to leave her and I offered her help. Because for having worked in so many places always at the end of each event, in the girls we exchanged facebook, phone. And that's when I heard the following sentence: get 6? I said how many more you need so that's where she told you, the producer that would be taking care of you this prey still at the airport. Arrange 7 girls that you will earn more and will stay in their place until the last day.

And since that day I have been for good years and it was they who took me and formed me as an event producer. I was working in parallel with them. I became known among the companies and I was producing the event through Maria and had my company bring all the manpower that would work at that event. Until one day I discovered that Maria's company had a very big corrupt scheme. I was very sad, but my reaction was to leave. Because to me, after knowing about it I would be conniving with the wrong things that Maria beech. With this I had a good money the company was growing, I left the house where I lived, I opened an office I hired an employee until the inexperience account arrived. My 20 or 21 year old arrogance left me so blind that I broke my company. I lost everything! Company, office, boyfriend, the house I lived in less than 10 days.

To make matters worse, I did not have the support of my family, just thinking about killing me! I still remember that the day I came to the conclusion that my company had gone bankrupt that day, I fought with my boyfriend on the day, I had my first panic attack on the street, I fainted I went to the hospital, I woke up at my mother's house almost 1 A day and a half later, every family would look at me and ask what had happened (already knowing the whole situation). But I was so ashamed and lost for being alone, losing all the work effort to see everything fall into your eyes for the day that I lied, I lied only that everyone knew.And since that day I have been for good years and it was they who took me and formed me as an event producer. I was working in parallel with them. I became known among the companies and I was producing the event through Maria and had my company bring all the manpower that would work at that event. Until one day I discovered that Maria's company had a very big corrupt scheme. I was very sad, but my reaction was to leave. Because to me, after knowing about it I would be conniving with the wrong things that Maria beech. With this I had a good money the company was growing, I left the house where I lived, I opened an office I hired an employee until the inexperience account arrived. My 20 or 21 year old arrogance left me so blind that I broke my company. I lost everything! Company, office, boyfriend, the house I lived in less than 10 days.

To make matters worse, I did not have the support of my family, just thinking about killing me! I still remember that the day I came to the conclusion that my company had gone bankrupt that day, I fought with my boyfriend on the day, I had my first panic attack on the street, I fainted I went to the hospital, I woke up at my mother's house almost 1 A day and a half later, every family would look at me and ask what had happened (already knowing the whole situation). But I was so ashamed and lost for being alone, losing all the work effort to see everything fall into your eyes for the day that I lied, I lied only that everyone knew.

This boyfriend left me in the worst days of my life, this first business was all I had, it was like a son to me. I stopped everything, to take care of this company and I saw it escaping through my fingers.

Missing 2 days for Christmas I got in touch with a very famous businessman here in Brazil. He is known to have broken 6 times and currently have a company that makes 60 million years. A phenomenon, in fact I did not even know he would return. I sent an unpretentious message on facebook telling me what had happened and everything how I was reacting around me, he returned the message asking me for my number and he ended up calling me. We talked for a few days and everything I tried and did was what I could solve, so without company, boyfriend and family support I said if he could give me a place to work cleaning this big company of him.

The same day I bought a ticket and went to São Paulo to find it, 12 days later I moved to São Paulo. I stayed there for some time, but the year 2017 was so disgraced and hungry that it gives a book. For you to have notion I lived in a hostel, volunteering for 9 months with only 2 suitcases, and it was all I had!

In the middle of it all you had days of high and low, and always as long as people had arrived there. But from that humble heart for everything I went through in 2017. In early 2018 I received an invitation to produce an event for a friend. Because I got to a level that I could not even find doors squeeze. It was as if I had lived or attended a level of people who did not understand me. In the end, this friend invited me to produce an event, as he knew that I was in the process of collecting money and documentation to study English in Australia. For months that was my goal, but since I had no money, I looked for ways to make it happen and it was like an au pair. I set up an amazing Australia family that would give me everything, I would just have to buy the tickets and take care of the trametes of the trip, but my whole study would be part of my work routine. In the end, I got the money for Australia, on the day of the visa email what happened? My visa was denied! I WAS STUCK! For it was the only thing I wanted very much during those months and that I was always dreaming.

Well, seen denied I still had the money with me and I received a new offer of an event to produce

An event of social appeal, where I found that from this relationship that started as an informal conversation of friends I'm about to lose my apartment. With the money from Australia I decided to rent an apartment to work on in the planning of this event, and with the pause and money that I would have from this other event I would spend working on my individual project and would be the biggest success. And guess what happened, she did not pay me. So much history about this company that hired me and did not miraculously paid the audience was marked 11/12. But I do not have money for nothing, late bills with no money for food. Anxiety cracks I'm living a nightmare. I know I'm not a woman in terminal cancer. But I'm not a useless one who stays atoa all day, my business models, my passion for business, and everything that revolves around is so great that it has no separation. If I can save my world I will save many people! I promise!