Presently I find myself in a situation where I am fighting for my health on a number of fronts, I want to try certain ideas in the hope that they will work, rather than having to submit myself to surgical operations which also may not work.I am so sick, tired and depressed of being ill for so many years.
I want to be able to walk without pain , to be able to go into the outside world, mix with people and work on beneficial projects. Since March of this year 2014 I have turned more and more into a recluse after moving into a small appartment after my ex wife divorced me in December 2013. I am English, live in denmark and have no social circle of friends who can help me. This world is strange to me after 13 years with my ex. I go outside now only for shopping, and this takes me a long time walking, due to the excruciating pain in my legs. So I spend my days in silence, feeling rather sad and trapped in this alien world
I have recently been diagnosed with Spinal stenosis, degenerative disc damage, and problems with L4 and L5 of my spine.I have to make decision on the 3rd of November of this year as to whether to have an operation or not.The race is on.
I have been researching and reading a lot , some useless stuff and nonsense mostly, but I have come across a protocol that may just work and carries information that makes sense on how to reversing degenerative disc disease of the back and spine.
Cool one would think, and it is, but I can not afford any of the things that I would need to purchase, like essential amino acids and materials that body builders use. A traction unit , and to be able to pay for a course in physiopherapy.My doctor suggested 12 sessions.The reason I can not afford to do this myself and need your help will be explained below.
Shortly after moving into this appartment after the divorce, and realising that I was getting worse not better I decided it was time to take my 4 year old son to see his aging and ill grandparents in England. I felt the opportunity may not arise again and he had not seen them for two years. I wanted to let them see what a beautiful young man he was turning into.
To do this I had to use what little money I had from my state support and also take a loan out from a private company, the bank would not help.I knew what the consequences would be, but to me the sacrifice was worth it.
So now at the end of each month I have nothing to live on after paying the bills. I borrow from a company who only lends money for 30 days and charge a high interst for this and I am now in a cyclic trap which I really and seriously can not get out of, and much needed avenues for working on my conditions are impossible as I can do nothing.
All of this is ruining the quality of life that I get to spend with my son whom I love very much, I do believe that I can improve my condition, thus the quality of my life by getting out of this awful debt, and by being able to purchase the items, supplements, and such which presently I can only dream of.
I do honestly need your help and support to do it.So close and yet so far. By experimenting and succeeding with my conditions I would be able to pass on knowledge and help to others who´s lives are also effected in this way.
I do not want to end up in a wheelchair in this country, I want to stand up and go back into teaching theatre,playing live music,meeting people and bringing a better quality of life.Any contribution small, anything, will add up and be appreciated...I know that there are more worthy causes out there, this is mine.
I dont know if any one writes that a repayable loan would also be most welcome. I tried to get one from finance companies here, but all said no. I would repay a sum each month.
I did write and record my own songs and music, but alas my prized Martin accoustic was also sold to finance the trip to England. I have placed a 5 track album at the following site where people can pay 4 dollars for my songs and would mean that people would be getting something for their help and donations. The site for music purchase is here.http://everygenre.com/Patrick_Murphy
I am happy to answer any questions. I hope you can help, thank you in advance.