Support for lonely it-guy

Hello, world. I am 28 yo talented programmer from Russia, who has had big perspectives in professional area. During school years I loved mathematics, could resolve very complicated tasks. The same time my mother bought the first PC for me and in a moment I realized, that it was my future. Then I moved to Moscow, to one of the best Univecities of Russia to learn computer sciences. That time I began to note, that my mind became work worse, I could not take all the knoledges in studies. I had to start work very early, just passed 18, just in order to have enough money to eat normally, because my mind felt light hunger as the starvation, that made the dysphorya stronger and stronger year be year. At least, I lost any interest to life and last april found myself  in mental hospital. As  a consequense of this i lost my job and could not find new one during 8 months! My guess is the records of my treatment in the cocoos nest gone to illegal databases that use Security departments of big companies.. Yes, its true, its our reality. I had to live this long jobless months taking debts in banks for paying for the room that I rent, for food, for everything. Thanks god, this april I found the job of my dream, where I see big perspectives to growth as Developer, my mental health normalized, although I have to spend ~$200 mounthly for medicaments, which I will take 1-2 years more..  Besides... last year my mother sold her big flat at the little russian town for buying my little studio in 40 km from Moscow. The development company built nothing... and aren't go to do something, we ask god for returning part of the money that we had given them..

So... No I have about $20.000 debts to the banks, rent a room and have a great desire to improve my professional skills, take many courses from Microsoft and other vendors, and begin to live..  even if 30 years old. My father doesnt trust that he'll see the grandchildren.. 

Thanks. With hope. Anton. Moscow.