Suicide or GoGetFunding

I do not know English, I apologize. Translated via Google.

Good day to all! I will present briefly and honestly. My name is Vladimir I am 21 years old, I live in Estonia Tallinn city. The whole essence of my problem is a debt of 4,000 euros +%, in front of 4 financial firms issuing quick loans.
In general terms, and against the background of the rest is not a problem, I agree. But for me personally this is this, this lack of opportunity to go to learn and self-realization, without these things I just don’t see any reason to live, I’m lost and often think about suicide, but as long as I see chances of solving the problem, I’m holding, I realize that Now it's 21 years old and I will have to pay this debt and live like a stray dog for up to 25 years. I am afraid to imagine how much time I will lose and what I can turn into during this time, I am afraid to think about whether I really have the strength to go through it. P.S I don’t want to say anything bad about someone, because first of all I myself saw the solution of financial problems in loans, but I took them so that we could live with my former love, not worse than others, I completely plunged into this love and completely forgot about self-realization. When I lost love, I sobered up and realized that I was not on my feet in this world, and with a huge burden on my shoulders. For our country, this is big money, especially big for people like me (born on the territory of the country, but my parents took Russian citizenship for me, and I didn’t even ask for this) here they call the “Russian occupier” more difficult for us to get a good job, and On the whole, the attitude is worse than that of citizens, perhaps for this reason I was allowed to take so many loans. So, with my salary of 700 euros and renting 350 + utilities + 280 euros per month, lenders require. I took advantage of all the ways to somehow smooth out this situation including refinancing, I was denied it everywhere due to the fact that I can’t pay for loans anymore, I apologize to people, but I am very much lost in life and ask for help go out of life.
PEOPLE DO NOT THINK THAT I DAMAGE, PLEASE !!!! THIS SITE IS THE LAST HOPE FOR ME, I HANDLE OVER THE INTERNET AND EVEN WRITE HERE THROUGH THE TRANSLATOR !!! IF THERE IS GOOD PEOPLE WHO ARE AFRAID OF THAT THEM WILL FRAUD, I AM READY TO PROVIDE ALL THE DATA WHERE ARE I NEED TO PAY AND HOW MUCH. HUGE THANKS FOR YOUR ATTENTION!
I realized all the pain of life...