In 2014 my dad, Clarrie and my mum were having financial problems and with struggling with depression, my dad chose to end his life in June 2014. His job that he had working at Caroma for 19 years was coming to an end in his contract and he was completely stressed with having to find another job when he was used to the one he had.
There was more things going on, my dad still had his truck and house that was still owned legally by the banks even after working day in and day out every week day at 6am until 5pm. A lot of things were going wrong with our family and my dad started to take his anger out at yelling at everyone he loved.
The day that I found out about my dad was the hardest day of my life. And still is. It's worse for my mum, of course. Especially since she is left with a mortgage and missing her best friend.
Everything was a mess but it became worse last year in March 2015 when my oldest sister Jaqueline followed my dads foot steps and was found in her bedroom with a drug overdose and her body blue.
I hadn't found my dads body in 2014 like my mum had but last year, both me and my mum discovered my sisters and our worlds just collapsed again.
Death is really hard to handle, but I find it worse giving the fact that my two family members choose and preferred it rather then living.
My sister, Jaqueline was depressed after my dad passed away and moved back home with mum to keep her company in late 2014. Jaqueline had finished her nursing degree at UniSa and was waiting to start work in March 2015. She was depressed over many things, her relationship with the guy she loved ending, her weight gain and weight in general and the last thing she wanted was to start work and deal with her thoughts. In her suicide notes she had wrote that her problems felt like they were in a jar, and the jar was too full, making her unable to handle anymore problems. In the photos are pictures of Jaqueline and you will be able to notice she had lost quite a lot of weight and then before my dad committed suicide, he was leaning heavily on her for support with depression. This lead to her binge eating again and slowly started her weight gain.
In the pictures that are featured I have pictures of my dad, my mum, my oldest sister Jaqueline and my other sister as well as myself. My dad and mum are wearing glasses (though my mum does have them off in one or two pictures). In one picture it has my mum, oldest sister Jaqueline, Melissa with one beanie and myself wearing the black beanie. Another picture with my dad in it is with Jaqueline, Melissa and myself. I also have a screenshot of the Facebook page I created in an attempt for people who are going through a death of a loved one through suicide to know that they are not alone. If you are experiencing the same thing don't be afraid to message me on there. I will try my best to help you
I have made this to try and fundraise money for my mum so that she can pay the rest of the money she owes on her house. I know it would mean the world for her to keep the house where so many memories lay.
Currently, my mum has a dog named Bella to keep her company to help her with depression, as shown in the pictures.