Hello guys! My name is Martynas and here is my story. I am a 22 ,year old student who lives in Lithuania. Back in 2013 I've finished high school and started studying Medicine in Kaunas, Lithuania.
I was really eager to start my own adult life away from my parents and I've followed my passion - medicine. So I have managed to do good during my exams and got into a university to study medicine.
During my years in university I had a lot of chronic stress due to my studies. There was a, deadline after a deadline, an exam after an exam and despite all of it I managed to finish 2.5 years out of 6 total. I've had a girlfriend at a time which I believed at the time, that she was soul mate. Unfortunately, after 2.5 year mark I started experiencing panick attacks and agoraphobia. I thought it will pass on it is own, when I had less stress to deal with. But unfortunately on the april of 2016 I've crashed totally. I could not move, I was crying all the time, I could not leave my bed and my girlfriend after a, month of this left me, telling me that she could not support me anymore. I was devastated and hospitalized in June 2016.
I left the hospital on the very end of August in 2016. During that time I was diagnosed with an extreme case of GAD (generalized anxiety disorder)with PA (panick attacks) and agoraphobia (fear of public places).i have lost all of my life and dreams that I was building on my own young adult life. I was unable to be on my own and was forced to move back in with my parents in September 2016 in my home city. I was getting a little bit better, but during November 2016 I was hit with terrible news - my mother was diagnosed with stage II breastcancer. My health went downhill again as I was seeing as an only child my mom going through chemo, radiation therapy. I remember vividly sobbing during the night because of my mom. She had to borrow money from friends and family for her treatment and since I was unable to help I was devasted. I decided to find a, job and start recovering. In the end of November I found a job in a bowling alley in a shopping mall. That helped me so much. I started earning a little bit of cash also started to socialize and my anxiety decreased rapidly. After 3 months of that I was working as a sales agent. I made more money, so I could help my mom out. Fortunately, her treatment and surgery went well and she was recovering psysically. Last holidays were a nightmare for us.. during spring of 2017 I have built up the courage to move out of my home city again and Ive moved to Kaunas to my friends place to work with Taxify ( ride sharing platform like Uber). I took a, small loan from the bank so I would not ask any money from my parents. Everything was going well and I was planning to, get back to the medicine during last september. But as the date neared by, my health went backwards again. I consulted my doctor and he pointed out medicine studies as my main cause for anxiety. My body has just started to crash from it. I decided to quit. It was so hard for me to leave my biggest dream behind my back. I continued to work in Kaunas as taxify driver, but I was not earning a lot. I got in debt for rent, for the car that I was renting. During last summer I decided to make some changes to my life once more. I applied for university in finance in Vilnius. I got in and since september Ive moved to Vilnius. I am so happy here. I met my soulmate here. I love her so much. She listened to my story and since shes always there for me. My mothers health is perfect now as well, but right now, before holidays I am in debt still. I earn more now, but I want to get rid of the debt so I can repay my mother and my girldfriend for support they gave me. You have no idea how much I would appreciate having a happy Christmas with both of them and forgeting the last Christmas where I was not knowing if we were going toto make it.. thank you :')