My name is Bill. I am 43yrs old and am starting my life over. For the last 15years I have been addicted to opiate pain medication. It happened when I was 29 with a softball injury to my back. Without going into a great amount of history about the last 15years. I will only say that the doctors who prescribed me the pain killer's were no help once they new I was addicted. They would just turn me away. Never offering any help.
I have lost jobs, friends and most importantly family. Including my daughter due to the behaviors and my actions during active addiction. I have been through numerous rehabs, county jail and prison. This last March I was released from prison and entered a 90 day transitional living facility, where I received treatment, counseling and was able to find work. I had since left the transitional living home in June and moved into my own apartment. It was a mistake. It had been so long since I had had my own place and feeling the need for independence I rushed into something I wasn't ready for and ended up getting evicted. I also lost the job I had due to lack of work experience. Which contributed to the eviction. Since the eviction in September I have been living in a house that reinsurance. . It is not a safe environment for me as far as my sobriety and abstinence from all mind altering substance's are concerned. I have a new job and it is going well, but I just can't seem to get ahead.
The reasons I am asking for help are as follows. The first and most important is helping in the support of my daughter. Being incarcerated I was unable to work and have a back log of child support that I just can't catch up on. Also I am unable to contribute in any other way as far as medical bills, school cloths and personnel items she might need are involved. This is the hardest thing for me to have to deal with morally. I know raising a child is not all about the money, but its the only way at this time I can contribute. The second reason I ask for help is the company I work for is moving its location 20 miles from where they are currently located and from where I live. It will be about a half hour commute. This will be happening this spring. At this time I have no drivers license or vehicle. The drivers license is a easy fix, but I do have to pay the reinstatement fee and obtain insurance. My next issue is the purchase of a vehicle. As you can imagine being incarcerated does not help well with your credit rating. I will have to start out at a buy hear, pay hear type of venue. The down payment is the issue. And third and for most the finding of a new and safer place to live. My sobriety and abstinence is the most important thing in my life. If I do not have that, I loose everything. I do not want that to happen ever again. I'm not saying if I don't reach my goal that this will happen by any means. I know I am in control of my own destination.
My reasons for asking in this forum is because of the lack of family support, which I will tell you is my own doing. Addiction is not a nice thing. People are hurt and trust is lost by your actions. I am now 18 months clean and I need help. I have worked so hardto get where I am today. I know this is a risk for anyone to help, but I have no choice but to ask for it. This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
Thank you for your consideration.