Stability

I've debated back and forth on whether I should set up a page like this especially when I read other people's situations who I feel are more deserving. Then again, I see people who are given money by luck or for no reason so I'm creating this in hopes of getting a step closer to my goal. It's not something I expect or feel entitled to. This is simply for anyone who has extra money and wishes to help fund a dream. If not, I am perfectly fine with that. I definitely feel money can go into way better causes. I will share my backstory but I want to say, I consider myself incredibly lucky. I have been blessed with a loving family and people who've helped me get to where I am today. I am a PTSD survivor (non-military). I suffered a trauma at the age of 20 and consequently dropped out of college. I have a obsessive compulsive disorder that flares up when I am particularly stressed out. This disorder consumes my life and prevents me from functioning like a normal person. It's a big obstacle in my life but I try and continue with the things I have to do. I come from a hard-working family. At one point I was living with only my mother and I was unable to support her as I was still dealing with trauma without any help whatsoever. My mother worked so hard I would go days without seeing her for more than a few hours. Her blood pressure soared through the roof and she landed in the hospital at-risk of a stroke. I am now with both my parents. I refuse to apply for any disability because I refuse to see myself that way and am working on continuing to grow as a person and getting help for myself. I want to work for my things because I believe that is what builds self-respect. I was taught getting help is a luxury, "depression" is a luxury. Doubt has been one of the greater obstacles I've faced with mental health (not stigma). But as I've gotten older, I've re-written that terrible concept from my head. I prioritize taking care of myself when possible and I am actively seeking work that is suitable to my condition. My parents have helped me as much as they can (although I keep most of my troubles from them cause I don't want to cause them any sadness) and I am grateful to have a roof over my head at the moment but things aren't always so easy. We are rented out in a duplex and my next door neighbor is a schizophrenic who previously lived with her mother. I will not release details of situations that have arised for their privacy, but some nights my stress levels soar through the roof and I feel trapped in every aspect. I am in a city with one of the largest gaps between earnings and cost of living making it near-impossible to even be able to get out. My dream is to have a stable home for myself and my parents. My parents are intelligent, humble people who have not had the same opportunities as most here and have had to take what they could. Any funding will go towards that dream and in return, I will pay this action forward.

Again, any money or no money - thank you if you simply took the time to read this. At most, share if you'd like!