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I've always wanted to work with animals and be around animals, but have had a hard time getting there.I was born in South Africa and moved at a young age to my father's country along with my mother, father and brother and sister when I was 5 years old. We moved to Madeira Island / Portugal.
We have never really been very well financially, in South Africa we kept moving and couldn't afford to set roots somewhere, we lived with family for a bit, however my mother did not wish to be a burden.
We went to Portugal, living with my grandmother that seemed to like us the least of all her family and despite helping us in one way made things difficult in others.
I had always loved animals and always had pets growing up or around me.
My father was against me going into animal care and the future in animal care where I lived looked dim.
My family life was somewhat unsociable and at times very stressful, many times with a backwards caveman mentality on my fathers side of the family despite my mother's encouragement.
At school, a simple thing like a lip defect had people teasing me, calling me a monster, the ugly one, the retard, so school was a depressing place for me and with all the bullying, inclusive people slashing my schoolbag, trying to hit me and an attempt to strangle me, made me attend school less and less, and despite a good bond with teachers I had difficulty fitting in, and seeing pets as family made me even more of a target for mockery as pets to many of them was like furniture and not of any significance. I remember a remark from someone say they were relieved the car hit and killed a dog rather than scratch their car and I was in tears, this was at a family get together.
When I had just turned 18 I escaped in a way of employment to the UK, I had only met my employers online and despite the fears of ending up in modern slavery scam I went of in 2005 to be an Au Pair (Nanny) to 3 underage children and 2 cats. This did not work out and after about 3 months I was back, I tried again, desperate to leave and got a job with horses, this time in Irlam, Manchester, but the yard was too big for me and I was too slow, I'd missed another chance around 2007, but I wasn't happy in Portugal, I tried enlisting in an Administrative course that sounded good in Portugal, things seemed to be looking up, but it was short lived when a few weeks before the course was due it was cancelled due to insufficient students enrolling.
Back to normal school, I was about 20 with students about 15 years old, I was mocked, teased and bullied, another older girl in the class the same age was given the golden treatment, so it was not my age, and many of my colleagues would look to me for advice and help but rather not be seen with me in public, it was soul wrecking.
I finally managed again to go to the UK in 2009, this time London, I applied to many places, I had an apprenticeship with horses but due to my age I was over the age for funding and couldn't afford to go anymore, I mentioned it to the person in charge, they said they could help, but nothing was done and I had to back out.
I sent many CV to offices, animal establishments, even tried for volunteering nearby but always rejected for something or another.
I have managed to work caring for elderly people, it is a hard job, sometimes I deal with very difficult cases and in care it can take its toll on you mentally and physically. Don't get me wrong, I love helping the elderly, but I just don't feel it's what I want for my future.
Having a highly stressful job mentally and physically, low wages for what I do, high cost of living, having to use my overdraft and just managing, I feel I might never be able to do what I've always wanted, to work in animal care.
I'm using this in an attempt to raise the money to take a course and study in "Veterinary Support Assistant" it would enable me to help others, help pet owners and pets, if I manage to raise the money through this site to take the course I will try to open a blog or site to keep those who helped me achieve my dream, updated on what they've helped me accomplish. I doubt I will, but any extra money raised will help me with further bills such as transport and rent if I can't do the course and work full time as I will still need to pay my bills if I'm studying full time.
Thank you so very much for reading this and taking the time to listen to my story. I have many dreams and aspirations but this has been a big one in my life and I've found it very hard to achieve, anything is appreciated to help me. If you are unable to give I thank you anyway for your time and consideration.