Spiritual journey out of depression, by bycicle

Hello you, thank you for checking out my very personal campaign!

My name is Wessel, and i'm here because i need help. What i need help with is funding this journey From The Netherlands to Santiago de Compestella, and carry on south to visit my spiritual teacher Mooji in Portugal, a total of 5200km i will travel by bycicle , all for lessons that will last a lifetime.

Why do i want to go on this journey?

I want to go on this journey because i will face my fears, learn to rely on myself and on other people i meet along the way, do the pilgrimage to Santiago de Compestella to honor my religious upbringing, and visit my spiritual teacher Mooji, because spirituality, and Mooji in particular, really helped me towards getting past the thing that has held me back in life, held me back from taking this journey, and held me back from doing the things i wanted to do, and the thing that has held me back is depression.

My depression developed at a young age, difficult home situation with caffeine addicted mother, and a father that was barely ever there for me, and never in the way i needed. Because i was a very emotional young boy, and i never really had the chance to learn to express myself in a healthy way, at school it was just shut down, something you shouldn't do as a boy, so i was taught to hold it in, resulting in depression starting at the age of 9, and it carried on for 5 years, attempting suicide a number of times.

It came back after high school, and has controlled my life ever since for the past 6 years, in relationships, in my hopes and dreams and attempting to fulfill those. I have felt like a burden to those around me, being dependent on my family. And to quote Eckhart tolle: "When you suffer, you cause suffering to others around you".

Even though i've had depression, through spirituality i have opened up more to a more peaceful place within myself, and although it's still a cycle of feeling down, then searching for a way up in spirituality, feeling good again, but eventually falling back down again, repeating the cycle, i do feel like every time i get up, i feel better. A major influence in feeling better has been through reading and watching video's from a number of spiritual masters like: Eckhart Tolle, Ram Dass, Jack Kornfield, Thich Nhat Hanh, and especially Mooji Baba.

Mooji has been my greatest teacher, the way he speaks, makes me realize the way's in which my mind work, that keep me trapped, and it sets me free. That's why i'm planning to go see him in his Ashram (temple) in Monte Sahaja, Portugal. Every religion has their place where to go to strengthen their faith and belief, a holy place, and i feel this place is mine.

I've dreaded making this campaign, and even though i have always been a firm believer i can do it myself, i realize i can't get there without the help of others, without the help of you. If you decide to donate, i would just like to thank you, from the bottom of my heart, and to just say that even though you're helping just one person, it will make a world of difference to me, this will change my life forever.

I will end this with a quote from Mooji, here it is: "Step into the fire of self-discovery. It will not burn you, only what you are not."