Starting Again at 46. After a recent marriage split and loss of employment I was ready to give up. Jobs here are not easy to find and employment opportunities few and far between. With every knock back I found myself falling deeper into a self destructive depression suffering from anxiety attacks and overwhelmed by fear. The last straw was one Saturday when I found myself laying on the floor crying constantly and unable to function, it was time to fight, time to overcome and time to stop being self indulgent and make a change. If there is limited opportunities to begin again then I will create my own and have begun a small business building fences and doing handyman work around my local area. I have 4 amazing kids from 21-10 yrs and they need me to lead with an example of never give up. I know this may be a long shot and my story is probably familiar to many, it's not laced with some of the terrible inflictions that plague others nor will it seem to some worthy of their time. It's a story that sadly is repeating itself throughout community's around the world a story that with the belief in the one can help to change a life that has the capacity to affect many to come. Thanks for your time.