HELP ME BECOME BETTER

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Hello to everyone that stopped to read my post.

First thank you!

My name is Amanda and I am a single mom to a beautiful son named Xander, he is turning 4 end of January.

I have never done anything like this before especially to total strangers. I am using my faith and optimism that something will work out for me FINALLY! Lol

I am huge in having good mojo and always willing to help another , even when I don’t have much to give myself. I don’t expect good karma back when I help others but won’t lie and say I don’t think about it.

Here is a a quick run down. I haven’t had the easiest life with having my father pass away young and not having a mother home much to guide my way.

I never fit inside the box my family expected from me so that has always isolated our relationships.

I have picked horrible men that have physically and mentally abused me and spent many years learning the lessons of life the hard way.

So let’s jump to recent. I broke up with my sons father almost 3 years ago. He walked out and left his son and myself with a apartment being evicted due to non payment of rent.

I got myself self my own small apt. Things were going smooth and I was working...THEN he stopped paying child support and I was laid off.

I lost that apartment and ended up putting things in storage and basically couch hopping and living out of my car with my lil boy for 7 months.

November of last year I lost close to $600 a month of government money called Child Tax Credit which every parent gets when they are single and low income. Well right before Xmas it was cancelled with no notice to find out my ex continued to file his taxes as common law which of course didn’t match up to my single status.

The government totalled up the amount of payments for 2 years and said I owe them as they feel I was still with my sons father .

I could challenge it by proving that I was actually single the whole time and they gave me a huge list of documents to provide.

I have done that and more since then and they still find ways to tell me I need more proof. It has almost been a year without that money.

I found a job north Alberta and finally got us a home. The job was supposed to start February 2018 and I was ready to get things back together again.

Moved my stuff out of storage to find out that the person I was paying to store it (well my mom was paying) had helped themselves to most of my things.

Still to this day I am using plastic utensils and plastic plates I keep rewashing.

So February I moved here and I find out the company that was supposed to open, is on hold because they have problems with permits and contracts. 😫😫

Now I am a year later still waiting for the business to officially open.

I am stuck in a town of maybe 3000 people, no transit and tons of snow because it’s right up on the top of mountain range.

Other work here is hard to find and most are split shift.

Unable to use my car as the tires are past bald and having no way to pay enough down for someone to watch my boy.

I am in a huge jam!

I don’t have family to ask for help.

His father doesn’t pay regularly per month and my mom has literally been my financial saviour.

Government just barley pays my rent and the food bank runs on empty here usually all of the time.

I am now feeling lost and almost defeated.

I have found work back in the city I lived in Calgary, Alberta. The dayhome that used to watch my son is willing to work with me and is eager to have him again.

Friends have found me a place to stay until I get my feet back under me...: such positive things.

I AM STUCK :(

The travel is 8 hrs and my tires are just too dangerous to make that trip. Any extra money I do have buys us food, clothing (my son). Nothing special or big in anyway.

Now Christmas is coming and I feel horrible that I might have to ignore this season once again.

I have no tree and even if I did I have no decorations for it.

Then presents....I don’t have extra money to buy myself much needed personal supplies let alone a present for him to unwrap.

I am staying awake most nights trying to plan a way to come up with the money to load up my car with our main things and drive to Calgary where I can finally start to rebuild our life and give my son everything he deserves.

I have sold what I had of value already to make it through the months I have been up here already.

I have been a warrior survivor my whole life, I am getting tired..

I am putting the energy out in a new direction and seeing if this is the way that will help open the door for life to get better.

I will always continue to pay it forward, even if I don’t raise anything at all.

Thank you again for taking the time to read my request. I will gladly explain further to anyone who may have questions.

If you donate, I truly appreciate your help