I do not wish to keep this short as the Discripton askes.. Im sorry but I never asked for anything and I work hard for everything that I have..
never asked for anything - this man begs you all to read this. This Pair wants to drive and move to florida he may seek treatment at Friedman located in St Petersburg FL, and breath warm air. help.
I'm 32 years old and live with my dog Fun.. Fun is actually trained to help me get up if I fall down as well as many other helpful items. sadly including always getting in the garbage...
On 9/11 I wasnt a cop, nor a firefighter... I was a guy that just likes helping people. I ran to the towers when this happend.. I tried helping.. but everything was so disorginized and you couldnt even see in front of you in some areas.. I was walking and I ended up running into a rescue worker that asked me to help carry a bag,, I took this bag and then we walked towards a bus.. I dont know really know why I did but I was asked to get on this bus.. I ended up in a building not to far from ground zero.. The amercian red cross call center.. I sat in this building for the amercian red cross for hours upon hours answering phone calls.. of families that only seen what happened on TV, not what I seen... These people all had a reason to call. This number was for anyone in the world to call and ask me if their familiy member was on a hospital list being treated.. and if they werent on the list.. I would tell them to call back..since the hospital lists are updated everyhour..
My issue is - while doing this - out of over 50 people answering phones.. I ended up speaking to a women who was begging to find this girl for her.. this women i spoke with twice.. and now this womens name is stuck with me.. i never do anything about it.. but im haunted by this women everyday.. i do wish one day i can look the family in the eye and say hello and im sorry .. because this women i see - only because i feal like i lied saying its too early to know.. when I was told where she worked.. i knew what floor it was.. i feel i lied to this women. and it hurts
Now I will never seek help or asking for help for this issue.. this is in my head and its something i needed to say to the world. and maybe when I get better - I will try to contact her.. rather then stand near them at a memorial and simply ask for the time and walk away like a scared boy..
Look I suffer seiqures and I'm told stage 0 no cell.. only because i went to the hospital for a shortness of breath..
This ilness has NOTHING to do with 9/11 I WILL NEVER BLAME 2 HOURS IN THE CENTER OF IT ALL for my illness..
I cant talk the cold anymore and I dont like living near NY anymore.. I moved to RI and it is just colder and not far enough..
I been researching this for months.. The amount that Im asking for helps me in this way..
I want to drive with my dog.. I stop to stop at this place called south of the border on i95.. I want to jsut see things and enjoy things.. because I reach hopefully my pariadse .. my lungs hurt in this cold and i cant afford this move on my own.. im just asking for someone to help me..
If you cant help with money.. If you the area.. maybe you can find me a cheaper place to live.. since its only me and my dog.. I was looking into strudios.. simply because we dont need much room and I will officaly tell the world.. I'm on a fixed income..
I have two places lined up that is $650 a month - but if i find cheaper. I can streach out the money that Im asking for- For 4 months rent upfront so I can worry about doctors and maybe go fish or something nice
Thanks for reading.. I'm sorry for the ramble.. but I need to tell you - I ddnt want to do this. but I want to beat this.. and I want a new life when Im done with my battles..
p.s. I made the deadline 3/15/2014 the day of my birthday... and this it the only gift i seek..