Shave my beard which has grown to my belly button.

I had to resign from work and moved off grid cause people judged me to be racist by the way I look. I worked in retail and was called many names and if I walked into a restaurant all eyes would be on me. I have no means of making money and grow my own food but eventually my solar system will need new batteries and/or inverter. If woman can raise money online just by their looks than why can't I raise money by shaving my beard?