Hello everyone my name is Arda. I am 23 years old and on the paper, a man. However ever since i was a kid i always felt like the opposite gender. My whole life was me playing with girls or with their dolls and chatting with them while drinking tea. I could not play with any males or do their activities. My family was mostly in denial and said you'll eventually grow up and become a man. However this was not true and deep down i always knew that i wasnt gonna be turn into a " man " as they say. Years passed and i started to be more feminine and my father lost patience, so much so that he started to act more agressive towards me. Such as hitting me, taking my nail polishes and my dress'. My mother was the guardian angel that was protecting me. She always took more pacifist route towards me and even accepted me as the person i was. But on 23/07/2018 we lost my mother to the colone cancer. Ever since then my father furiously punished me, gave no food, money OR just like right now, kicked me out of the house. Thanks to my friends i can live for now. But because of the country i am staying even their families look at me with disgust. And eventually i'll run out of houses to stay. But i dont want this as an ending to my story. I can be so much more, i want to live, want to feel love and most importantly.. i want to be feel loved. I dont care if i no longer have a house to stay. I just want to be THE person i want. But as it stands i have no money, i hardly earn money by working with my friend right now. And most of you probably know that Turkey as a country isnt doing so well economy wise. Because of this the surgery cost is just too much for me. Quite literally i'll never be able to do this surgery with the current earnings of mine. Thanks to my friend i have found this site and thanks to her mother i can use her bank account as a money box since she lives in Belgium and Turkey do not support paypal or stripe. After their encouragement they said i should give it a go. So here i am giving a shot. Please make this wish of mine come true. I just want to be a new person when the new year comes. Thank you.